Tick Tock; The Clock's Ticking

On his sleeping pattern

2012-01-31T22:25:00.001+08:00

For a year i never have any fix schedule for him. Usually he'll have his meal around 10, then again around 3 or 4. After that dinner at 7 something.

His bedtime would depends on him. No fix schedule. Well not even a schedule. He can sleep whenever he wanted. ( well that determine mine too). But after a year plus, i just couldnt do it anymore. I mean like waking up 5 times a night is too much sometime. Especially when u have a rough day at work.

I'll be so emotional and will tend to be so mad. Dats not good. So then i decided it would be the best if i teach him how to sleep on his own. And eventually he'll sleep throughout the night. Well since my husband is only around for 2 weeks a months, thus we've been co sleeping with him since birth.

Not a good decision.

I make a promise to myself that tonight i just have to let him be at his crib. Making him comfortable. Making sure he's ok and everything.

After 10 minutes he started crying.

After another 10 minutes he tried to attract my attention by jumping up and down.

Next 5 minutes he started crying. This time even louder.

Few minutes after that he was showing his protest towards me. He bite his pillow and scream out loud.

After that its just crying, crying and crying non stop.

And after one hour, i gave up.

Yes, u read me. I gave up. I just cant.

Took him to the bed and breastfeed. And took only 5 minutes for him to dozed off.

Mission not accomplished. (dont think it will be pun)

Fuh!

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The thing that I miss the most

2012-01-23T23:47:00.001+08:00

There's only one thing that I miss the most since I become a mother.

A GOOD NIGHT SLEEP!

He's too cute. But if only I can have my good night sleep back, it could be so much better. Not complaining but I need to find a way how to teach him to sleep throughout the night without waking up 5 times.

Mcm mana perasaan tido lena kan? Lupa dah perasaan tu. Heeehe..

I blame myself for teaching him to co sleeping since birth sbb mak dia malas sgt nk bgn nursing Adam zarif sambil duduk. Adam syg tido sampai pagi ok. Mommy needs some rest at night.

He's been sleeping since 9.30. Let's just hope he continue his dream till morning.

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On 2012 aspiration : # Body Lotion

2012-01-16T16:49:00.004+08:00

I have plenty of body lotion i could say. most of them bought with first instinct, body shop, johnson, etc. But unfortunately i am not a discipline kind of person. will use it for few days then i will totally forgot bout it. how ar? to make discipline of yourself. its just not me.

as i was looking at my body everyday, i know how hideous i look. my skin, my hands, my tummy (obviously!) so ugly. i cant barely look at it.

so today i stopped by with ashylla at the guardian just to buy a new cleanser for myself. (that will be another story on sk2). i come across few beauty product on lotion, cocoa butter, etc. but which one is the best?

still thinking, will i make really use of it? i have to do something bout my body kan?

She's getting married in 2 weeks!

2012-01-06T16:52:00.006+08:00

We've been waiting for soo long for this girl to get married.

and she is.. IN 2 weeks!!

and to the man that she knew and been together for 10 years!

Just a simple lunch to celebrate her no-more-single-life today @Poppy near KLCC. and Delia was so kind to bake her these cute cupcakes. cute kan! and it match her wedding theme.

We wish you luck and all the best Ujie!

the cupcakes

the glooming bride

busy choosing the meals

the talks

the friends

the bride again and the mommy

I kick start my new year with my Me time!

2012-01-05T13:59:00.004+08:00

I started this year with a new resolution. Well not so new i guess. I wanted to have a more quality time for myself and with my son.

Thus as advice by lots of people, I took the initiative to kick start with the me time.

The new year’s eve was celebrated at home with my mom and dad. Hubs was away for work thus having 3 days off alone was no fun at all.

Me and zarif flew back to hometown and spend couple of days there rejuvenating and hibernate ourselves there. Zarif somemore was spoilt by my parents whom let him do anything at home including destroying the tv remote control and mom’s wardrobe. (cucu punya pasal anything can!)

It feels good u know. Going back and stay with ur loves one and waking up to beautiful sunshine and clear fresh air. (did I mentioned my house is in the middle of sawah padi? Can u imagine how a perfect live my parents have everyday. Plus somemore, right now the paddy is still green. Its serene overlooking beautiful scenery at home was a bless.)

We went back to the concrete town on Tuesday then I decided to have a more ME time. I sent my baby to my babysitter and off I went to a spa in Wangsa Walk, Jari Spa. (Never that I know that it is owned by the beautiful actress RCW.) Since I never plan to have any facial or massage thus no booking was made on that day. Just walked in.

My sincere review on the overall treatment?

Not to my expectation and I don’t think I will come back. Its not that bad but I think the treatment did not suits me. It hurts! The night I went to sleep I can still feel the pain and headache. I opted for Balinese massage and normal facial that cost me around RM208 total.

But im not sure whether it is the way of treatment or the girl did not really a good job. Sakit sgt. When she pukul2 my feet rasa mcm nk luruh betis. Boleh? Uhh.. bad experience. The facial when she try to clear out my blackhead tu rasa mcm sikit lg nk nanges. Sakit!

No more for sure!

I still going to have a Me time but I still couldn’t find a perfect spa place for me. Maybe a few more hunting will find me one. But obviously, no more walk in or survey. Too bad khareyna spa was too far from my home. Shush! Should have just go there ari tu.

But im glad I started to have a time for myself this new year. ;)

So what's in 2012?

2012-01-04T23:16:00.001+08:00

Every year I must have this wish list that I carry or remember most of the time. But before we went to the wish of 2012, let's have a look on the achievements of this year. (gaya ckp ala2 planner)

Did I achieve any of it?

1.need to change my appearance seriously!
Like seriously?? I did not do much ok! Please change Hana. Don't take things for granted.

2. I want iphone
Yes! Hubs so kind bought one for me. And now we both own iPhone 4. And now how bout i4s, dear? :-p

3. settling in Alam Impian
Not yet. Still uncertain when to move there. But renovation will begin early this year. :-)

4. work harder
Well so many things happened this year. I could say that I did not give my very best. Dad's bypass, zarif got sick, etc.
This year gonna be tougher but I'm sure I can manage it.

5. earn more money must start up my business as soon as possible.
Let's kiv on this one first. Not this year. Not now. Too many things on my plate right now

6. be a good wifey
Will improve as time goes by. Dah beli buku hadiah utk muslimah. Heeee...

7. be a good mommy zarif is my ultimate
Alhamdulillah I am and insyaAllah will continue be.

8. be a good daughter
No doubt!!

9. investment
Oh no! Need to improve on this one. But I do have insurance now. :-)

10. most importantly, be a better muslimah words tell it all.
InsyaAllah. :-)

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I need a break

2011-12-22T11:50:00.004+08:00

*Disclaimer: this is all about myself, maybe other people would feel the other way but im just human and i believe i have the right to feel this.

Being a mom it aint easy. Tho that i enjoy every second, having to see my son grow up in from of my eyes, its just miracle. Magical u could say.

he is my love. my prove of love to my husband. my amanah from Allah. my blessing and my angel. life isnt complete without him. but somehow.. sometimes.. i just feel that im tired. i know its my job to take care of him bcoz im his mother. his only mother. u can have so many sons or daughters but u will only have one mom.

a friend told me that i should stop treating myself like a robot. look back and think what really i want in my life. i know im a great mom to him but maybe it is time for me to have 2 hours a week just for myself. i should have that. im thinking to do that this weekend.

but i'm scared. people will perceived and think the other way. they will say that im a neglecting mom. sanggup tinggalkan anak nk pegi spa or shopping on ur own. but never they thought that im only human. never they realized how small i am. *sobbing tears

Some friends told me that they impress how tough i am to live alone when hubs is not around. (im not bragging about this ok). but have they ever know how hurt and how hard it was. i cry most of the night. it aint easy.

i wish that one day we could be a normal family again. where we can go back home together, when i cook for him, when i could rely on him for sick or for poor. insyaAllah. i will never stop praying.

and for now, i need to do something bout myself. i need to take a break too. May i have the courage to do so. Aminn..

An eye Opener

2011-12-14T17:23:00.006+08:00

Supermom is not that super anymore. I'm down with flu and cough. fever somemore. but i have lil baby to take care of. i cant be selfish.

abang got married last weekend so then im taking a day off for his big day. Drove to KLIA and catch the night flight back to Kedah with Zarif. well u know baby, sometime they have their mood swing. so he did the other day. he refused to sit in his stroller and ask me to carry him instead.

yes i did. all the way from the check in counter till the departure gate. with my heels and diaper bag somemore. then we got in the flight he started to throw his trantrum. he's sleepy i guess. crying out so loud and i managed to cool him off by breastfeeding him till sleep.

alhamdulillah finally meet mak and ayah at the arrival gate. They were smiling and all my pain goes away. alhamdulillah syukur ya Allah.

luckily during the akad nikah, reception and majlis btandang he's doing great. biasa la budak2 kecik kan. need our attention.

but on our way back to kl, supermom got sick. i got mild fever but i still need to go back to kl cause i bought the tix already. we got off the plane and manage to reached klia just in time. alhamdulillah.

with my eyes half closed, my spinning world, my extra flu and cough i got from home, i drove back. Since zarif is also not well, i straight away went to the clinic with him. got the medicine for both of us.

im just overdrive during the wedding i think. so tired and am still tired.

semoga hari esok lebih baik dr hari2 sebelumnya. InsyaAllah.

P.s: tell u its not easy to be a supermom. but i know Allah give me the greatest gift that i must cherish in my life. love my baby so much. would do anything for him. insyaAllah.

semoga anak mommy besar nanti hargai pengorbanan mommy utk zarif. semoga Zarif jd anak yg soleh dan beriman kepadaNya.

kes anak lambat jalan

2011-12-14T17:19:00.002+08:00

I'm just tired to hear all the people around me complaining and teasing me that my son cant walk. there are people who compare with their son, daughter, cousins, neighbour and what so ever. For God's sake, my son is only going for 1 year and 2 months ok! give him some time!

i wish i could just shut their mouth but of course la cannot kan. come on la. i had enough ok. sick of all of u.

every baby have their own pavement of development. they'll walk when the right time come, they talk when they're ready to do so. so what's wrong with u?

for me either u are not satisfy with ur life or u are just more happy to condemn people everytime u meet them. i had enough of u. syuhh.. just stay away.

thanks.

Holiday again maybe?

2011-12-03T12:32:00.001+08:00

My hands have been itching for the past couple of days. Not to get money but to click on the flight tix.

Thinking to go to new Zealand next year. Dh lama x pegi holiday. Survey sana survey sini. Seems like Matta fair jgk paling murah.

Hopefully my wish will come true. Aminnn..

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Check in 'hotel'

2011-11-15T21:13:00.001+08:00

He suddenly woke up in the middle of the night and start vomiting. Then comes diarrhea for 3 days.

Poor baby. He's so helpless. He cried every time I put him down. On Friday he looks dat he's getting better so we decided why not celebrating aidiladha with family. Went back with firefly.

I thought his fever would slowly go away but it didn't! When we came back on Monday, after almost a week of prolong fever we've decided it's better to be warded.

Can't keep on guessing right? And he's losing appetite and all.

After few days dah nampak ceria (muka kerek malas lyn)

Finally check out after 4 days 3 night at the PCMC.. Fuh!! Anyway thanks auntie kin for the visit and the super nice music guitar!

He's recovering well now alhamdulillah. :-)

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Grand Lexis @Port Dickson

2011-11-15T11:04:00.008+08:00

Since zarif's birthday and myself is just 2 weeks apart, hubs decided that we should go on a vacay. baru perasan since we have zarif, we never go to holiday as a family. selalu cuti mesti dok rumah or balik kampung. so since i got the replacement leave on friday, we decided it might be a good time to go for a short trip.

Grand lexis is the best hotel so far. ye la ada private pool sendri kan dlm bilik.

otw to PD. mommy lupa nk bg pakai kasut. hihi..

kena naik buggy pegi bilik. dpt free upgrade bilik sea view. tp xde impact pun.

2 king size bed!

me likey mommy!

private pool.

first swimming lesson with daddy.

enjoying his own time.

sronok la ronda2 bilik besar.

We definitely will come back!!

Baby Stuff to Let Go

2011-11-13T11:52:00.005+08:00

I got few stuff to let go. They are that we never use at all and rarely use and still in excellent condition. Im selling this to make some space at home.

ARGOS hand blender : Bought at RM90. now selling for RM50.

FISHER PRICE OPEN TOP TAKE ALONG SWING : RP : RM429. Selling for RM200 only. (look excellent sbb tak pakai pun since zarif is more comfortable in his rocker).

SWEET CHERRY CARRIER / BABY CAR SEAT : Bought at RM329. Selling for only RM100.

Look who turns ONE tomorrow!!

2011-10-17T21:32:00.003+08:00

ADAM ZARIF IS ONE TOMORROW!!

Damage done @BigBadWolf!

2011-10-16T00:38:00.006+08:00

let the pictures do the talking..

we were there before 10am! still need to line up tho.

hasil tangkapan.. aunty shikin paling byk beli.

ours! dora for kakak yam and ecah. the baby love for me (donno why i bought this).

bought 3 cooking book including jamie oliver. lets just hope that i do use the books ok! =P

yummeh!

lots of children books for zarif. only readers digest for daddy. sorry.. satu je sbb yg lain sme dh abes.

the best one! pop-up book. zarif loves it! cost me only rm8!

coffee table book. =)

till we meet again next year!!

An Evening @ Mali's Corner

2011-10-13T12:19:00.004+08:00

We were there last Saturday after we came back from our new house. However, it was so crowded and we dont think its ok to tag zarif along. nk beratur lg. dh la baby chair limited. so we all balik mkn mcd je.

then yesterday before hubs off to offshore, we went there again. rindu char kuey teow dia. walaupun udang dia makin lama makin comel dan kureng freshy. but still sedap. (kut maybe tgh lapa kutt)

tak brapa ramai sgt lg org. sila dtg lepas isyak kalau nk test power lutut.

sian adam makan sekut je.

my fav! yummehhhh!!

Early birthday card

2011-10-13T09:13:00.002+08:00

Wake up this morning and found this on Zarif's stroller.

daddy promised to buy lots of gift for zarif when he come back. cant wait! (mommy oso want to tumpang too!)

His therapy

2011-10-12T15:47:00.003+08:00

We have a new activity now. basically, last visit to Dr Anthony, we realized that he is kind of delay in his motor skills. he's turning 11 months at that current of time but yet to sit and stand on his own.

nothing serious actually. but being a mom, the tendency to be worry is there. He then recommend that zarif to go for occupational therapy every week. The session basically focus on to stimulate his brain and movement to his right development. Well.. apart from that, we also need to expose him at home.

The therapist said zarif is not serious only needed more exposure and training. He can sit own his own but only if we sit him. and he's strong to stand as well only we put him in that position.

The problem is.. he dont know how to do it.

Right now we are still going for the exercise and i much prefer to call it a class. Its like a gymboree class that you have so many toys in the room and free him. Next week we gonna start the hydro class (which actually it is a swimming lesson).

so far, he's developing well.. dh start angkat badan sendri and im happy to see him progressing after 3 weeks.

Turning a year in a week

2011-10-12T14:50:00.003+08:00

how time flies..

he's reaching one year old next week. Although daddy will not be here to celebrate with us but he promised we could celebrate it later when he come back.

my cheeky baby!!

Dont skip a step mommy!

2011-09-29T09:54:00.003+08:00

that was the word from a good friend, fuziana.

wanna know why?

ok let me tell u a story of a mother to a young son. one day the mom found out that her son is having a fever. so then she bought the koolfever (as everybody was suggested that it works well on their babies).

so she bought the thing and place it on her son's forehead. she hold it.

after a day she found out that her son is still having high temp so she made a conclusion.. "naaa..it just didnt work for my baby".

then today when again her baby had a mild fever, some friends told her about the koolfever again. so she said "noo la.. it didnt work on my baby" but it maybe worth a try kan. so she bought it again.

came back home and found out why it NEVER work on her baby..

tanggalkan pelekat lutsinar dan lekatkan dibahagian.....!!!!

ya i know.. im just so dumb sometimes.. =P

reading mommy's magazine with the koolfever stick to the forehead. now i dont have to hold the thing again! hahahaa.... (please ignore the background. i just had to wash his sarung bantal. masyam.)

but at least i tried kan.. =P

Weekend Outing

2011-09-29T08:37:00.003+08:00

Despite of zarif having fever, i still take him out for fresh air on sunday. (haha.. mommy jahat)

went to The curve with aunty Shikin and jtagged along were Amani and her mommy.

not much there. grab few cheap magazines. had lunch at Waroeng Ayam Penyet (me and hubs favourite obviously! at least we have something in common now.. lol). then to the FOS to grab cheap sleep ware pants for zarif. mommy? i didnt bought anything tho. (ehem.. *proud face)

playdate.. hihi.. sian zarif xde boy friends. nanti tunggu aiman besar boleh main bola. =P

amani and her drama.. (zarif malas nk lyn.)

their role model. hahah... (pliss jgn ikut perangai aunty shikin. tak senon main jelir2 lidah tuuu)

thats wrapped out our day. (zarif balik tido pukul 8 mlm, 7pg baru bgn. =D)

Look what i found

2011-09-25T21:36:00.002+08:00

Found this photo and it makes me cry..

cant believe that my boy is growing up so fast.

this is him when he is about 4 months old. off to babysitter as early as 7am. just the two of us.

cant believe i survived taking care of him alone.

*wipe tears

Tragedi Simpang Traffic Light Kosas #Reminder to lady driver

2011-09-21T20:19:00.004+08:00

before i forgot the exact thing happened that night, i better wrote it down.

remember those email u received said that if ada org ikut jgn berenti, or if ada org baling telur to your kereta just drive to a safe place.. remember those stories?

well it actually happened to me! FOR REALL!!

alkisahnya..

on saturday, i have few open houses to go.. so at 6 we've decided just to go home. and a friend also tumpang balik so i have to send her to ampang. (hubs not in the story bcoz he's not around. currently at the States doing his thingy. ya i know. wish i could go too)

ok back to the story..

so after dah hanta my friend who's live in bukit indah, ampang, then i trus la balik. its nighty time already around 8 i guess. (blame the bad traffic ok!) so then i was driving. stopped at the traffic light near tmn kosas tu. byk kereta obviously.

zarif was at the back in his car seat. sleeping. (thanks God)

then suddenly ade motor berenti on my left (sblah co-pilot). i first thought both of the men ni nk tukar pembonceng kut. dont care much. but all of sudden, one of the guy dah stood up next to me! (exactly on my right side!)

pointing his hand to my left tyre! as if i hit something or my tyre pancit ke apa!! i freezed! sumpah takut gila.. luckily dh kunci pintu semua. tried to ignore him and pandang tempat lain.

not to forget, before dia dtg tu i heard some sort like a sound of dog dying.. u know like.. assume u langgar cat/dog that those sounds kan. i seriously thought i hit an animal but Allah still love both of us, i ignore those men!

he walked away and the friend waiting on his motorcycle and blah!

ketaq gilaa ok!! i was shaking when i drove back. until now, i dont know what is their intention. and honestly when i came back home and checked my car, NOTHING IS WRONG with my car ok!!

confirm ada niat jahat..

but until now, im still nervous and in trauma. imagine if i go out from the car and if they took my car away and yes the baby is inside. nauzubillah..

Cant thanks Allah enough for his blessing. Alhamdulillah we're safe.

Clingy Zarif

2011-09-15T10:23:00.003+08:00

He's been himself lately.

im not sure is it because of the cough that he's having or he's having a separation issue. he cries a lot. he's been nagging and clingy soo much. nk solat susah. nak mandi susah. but i make it easier by taking him everywhere i go.

every morning when i send him to the babysitter, we'll spend one minute in the car. i told him that he's a big boy now. that he should be able to take care of himself. that he cannot cry that much. no more drama and tears.

sometimes, he seems like he understood what i said. he look at me which his sad eyes and said,'aa'.

he's a big boy now. and im sad.

dont grow up too fast dear. :-(

tgh drama tanak turun swing..

how could i say 'no' to him? he's too adorable.

Eid 2011

2011-09-07T16:19:00.005+08:00

Celebrating raya this year have been blast! with a new member in the family, everything is soo great! plus.. its all about him pun kan.

my handsome baby! (the son ye not the dad! =P)

on our way back to Tganu!

first raya together! first family photo too..

our big family!

pukul 11 pg. ahaha.. dh separuh bogel anak aku. =P

My raya Gift

2011-09-07T11:55:00.005+08:00

We were shopping for zarif's baju raya on Saturday when suddenly my husband asked me the magic question.

"so nak bracelet ke nk camera?"

"huh.. whatt?" (i seriously tanya dia 2 kali sbb mcm tak percaya.) Ok for those yg tak tau, i've been eyeing to this camera for sooo long. not to mentioned, i've been nagging him for quite some time. everytime he came back from offshore, sure my question is, "when can i buy the camera?" sampai dia fed up lepas tu ckp," beli la dh nk beli sgt". trus tak tanye dah. hihi..

so again i asked him.. betul2 la kan kalau nk bg. he said YESSS!

hoooyeahh!!...

finally i choose camera over bracelet! then baru dia ckp.. " bagus la awk nk beli camera, sbb camera awk dh hilang pun." erk.. rupanya adik ipar pinjam then tertinggal atas meja, dtg balik tgk dh ilang.. tho im actually quite sad sbb that camera i bought with my first salary money (ok tipu.. actually installment from my first credit card), tp dh nk ilang kan, nk buat mcm mane..

so this raya sye sgt happy!!

gonna blog more now sbb ada camera baru!!(konon!)

(at the airport, waiting for transit nk balik raya kedah)

Day dream

2011-08-25T11:37:00.005+08:00

eceh.. tajuk tu pun dh reflect. hihi.. buat highlight sikit so that nanti mana tau dream come true ke kan.

kalau la ade shoe cabinet mcm ni.. boleh la letak sandle2, kasut2 gua yg tak seberapa tu.

Perlu ke kan? setakat sandle clarks, vincci je kan.. hehee...

for bilik zarif, i really want low bench like this.. with the cabinet kt tepi.. cute kan?

tp not sure boleh buat tak kt rumah nanti sbb tingkap bilik zarif xde space kt tepi tu. if buat nanti kalau tgk dr luar mcm tertutup sikit tingkap. otherwise buat sblah kanan la kut or a smaller size rack.

to be continue...

(source : houzz)

When the time comes

2011-08-19T01:10:00.001+08:00

Someday, sometimes, somewhere, the time for me will come to an end.. Death is certain for everybody. Nothing in the world is immortal. We'll surely will meet the Great Almighty..

I've been thinking a lot about this in this Ramadhan. What if this is my last ramadhan. Did I do enough? Did I pray enough? When the time comes, will I be prepared for it?

Make me thinking deep about the hereafter. When the time comes, everybody will walk for judgement. We will forget about mom, dad, husband or even the children.. When the time comes, it's only you & Him. Again, did I do enough?

For every 1000 people walk through the silaratul mustaqim only 1 will survived. Takutnyaa.. Did I waste my 27 years of living for duniawi?

Subhanalllah.. Bukakanlah pintu hatiku, bimbinglah aku ke jalanMu, ya Allah.. Aku hanyalah hambaMu..

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I want this so bad

2011-08-15T09:07:00.004+08:00

These are the days...

That i cant have a good nite sleep. Keep thinking bout it. and realized this is the only thing that i want.

This are the only thing in my mind right now.

I cant eat well..

I'm sick..

I WANT LUMIX GF2! (ok mlm ni mimpi lg... )

of having solid foods

2011-08-02T14:00:00.002+08:00

my son is a very picky eaters. just like i mentioned in my previous post. igtkan dh beli food feeder minat la dia tp failed jgk!! aiyoo.. im getting worried whether he got enough nutrition of not.

he's been taking cerelac for the past few months. bukan xnak bg yg lain, dia mmg tanak. if you bg either dia buang, penyek2 kan benda tu, luah or muntah.. yg paling tak tahan.. siap buat muka geli lg ok!

so i should go back today with two mission:

one.. to feed the daddy with homemade nasi beriyani. (pakai perencah je nox!)
second.. to feed the daddy's junior ni with chicken porridge + something.. still searching for new recipes..

one of the option is:

Chicken Baby Food Recipes - Chicken And Peach Dinner

This recipe combines chicken with fruit - a combination that works surprisingly well ... and particularly appeals to babies!

4 oz (1/2 cup) cooked, boneless chicken, chopped
2 oz (1/4 cup) cooked rice (you can use white or brown, but brown is more nutritious)
1 ripe peach (dont have peach, maybe apple or sweet potato will do kan?)
1 tbsp formula/breastmilk

Remove the skin and stone from the peach, then quarter.
Place the peach, chicken, rice and milk into a food processor.
Chop roughly - (this recipe is suitable for babies capable of chewing soft lumps).

let just hope that it works today! will tweet the photos!

busy busy bee

2011-07-24T12:23:00.004+08:00

Past few weeks have been really hectic. kerja mcm org gila. hari2 balik mlm or late evening. tgk muka anak pun masa anta pi babysitter or tidokan dia mlm2.

this time yearly is a very busy time. nk mkn pun x sempat (tipu la tu). luckily i still have my weekends with my family. bwak zarif pegi jusco, then this week pegi focus point betulkan cermin mata. mula2 igt nk terus pegi onebabyworld tp tgk dia dh monyok je, trus balik rumah. ngntuk rupanya anak mommy. kesiann.. (padahal baru bgn sejam)

i was going to get him this..

munchkin food feeder

maybe zarif will be happy like the baby above.

my baby is such a picky eater. kalau baby papaya yg tak blend sure dia luah balik. but if u lenyek2 maybe dia makan. much interesting kut. tp as a mom, mesti la kita nk avoid kut tercekik ke apa kan. so this one is one of the solutions.

since mommy xda masa nk pi kedai beli benda ni. so beli online je laa.. huhu..

Im doing something

2011-07-07T12:36:00.001+08:00

Mommy.. Im busy ok.. I have something to do.

*Hidung kembang tu

Oh ya.. Im done. Now bring me to the toilet.

Aiyak.. Mommy dh cantik2 nk pegi keje kena cuci pooppoop dia pulak. :-p

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should we move?

2011-07-06T14:08:00.002+08:00

Officially, we got our keys two months back but since now we havent decide pun nk stay or not. few reasons la why we both are so unsure.

first,
now zarif we send to babysitter and so far she's ok with us. doing quite a good job handling him. but if later we move to S.Alam, sape nk jaga pulak?

second,
since hubs is working on 2 weeks basis, i have to stay home with the baby. now ok la sbb living in condo, at least feel a bit secure but if move to landed? aiyoo.. risau jgk la..

third,
our area tu not fully developed yet. kalau tak silap past few months when we visit the house baru ada like 5 houses yg ada penghuni. yg lain still xde lg. so x brani la nk dok situ lg.

dats are the main reasons la. however, we hope that next year we can move there. at least zarif dh besar sikit then i can send him to the nursery kan? =)

thought of having a maid but that would be the last option. karang aku pulak sakit jantung nk menghandle maid yg mcm2 perangai tu nanti. plus dh la xde kt rumah. karang dia buat ape2 kt hero kecik tu sapa nk jwb. currently i still prefer not having a maid.

but still..

even tak move out pun, we are still thinking to renovate/decorate the house. at least boleh balik on weekend kan. uhh! tak sabanyeee!!

My 7 minutes nasi goreng!

2011-06-29T12:28:00.004+08:00

so finally i've decided to do something good last night. to polish my cooking skills! hahaha.. oh ya and also to make use of the pressure cooker which i bought about around rm600 tu.

honestly, my life has been a lot easier with the pressure cooker. I can cooked nasi goreng within 7 minutes and it tasted delicious! (*Sumpah tak tipu!)

so there we go last night. Nasi goreng daging in the making...

Ingredients:
- perencah adabi nasi goreng
- bawang putih/bawang merah utk tumis
- daging (slices)
- beras

Cara2nye
1) press the stir/frying function
2) letak minyak and tumis bawang
3) letak perencah adabi
4) daging yg dh slice td
5) goreng a bit and then letak beras (letak beras ok! tak payah masak nasi mcm biasa tu!)
6) letak air
7) switched off the stir/frying function
8) switched on the pressure cooker for 7 minutes

taraaaaa!!

nasi goreng daging siap in 7 minutes!! yahooo! sumpah sedap! hahahaa..

ps : See husband... i told u my pressure cooker is a good buy u know. kan? =P

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Cooking and me

2011-06-26T21:49:00.001+08:00

I must say dat im no good sometimes. So now our routine dh berubah. My hubs is now working offshore. 2 weeks on, 2 weeks off! Dat mean he has more quality time for us comparing dulu only 4 days a months. (alhamdulillah)

But since he's home i never cook for him. Too bad for him kan? I know he wanted me to cook but must be dia xsampai hati looking at me unorganized with full of works.

I feel bad honestly.

I think i should cook for him. Maybe at night so dat he can have a proper lunch during the day. Will try it next
week insyaAllah. But first of all, kena la restock fridge dulu. Seriously got nothing in there!!

Mcm mana nk masak si kecik ni asyik ajak main je!! He's adorable sgt now! Grrr!! Geram!

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Ayah and highway

2011-06-14T10:36:00.000+08:00

I have a lot to write bout ayah. Same goes to whats happening in my life rite now.

Smlm ayah dh selamat buat bypass surgery @loh guan lye specialist hospital, penang. Alhamdulillah. Now he is in fully state of mind. Dh sedar but there's still tube and wire around him. Suprisingly no matter how much we love him, we didnt drop any tears when sending him to the operation theater.

I hope that ayah will recover as soon as possible. He's a great father i could never asked for. Before we sent him, he said, " ayah x sabaq nk buat highway baru. Nnti boleh pi mkn sedap2." he didnt know that doctor did 5 highways for him!!

Get well soon, ayah! I love you..

i cant believe this

2011-05-22T11:03:00.003+08:00

few facts that i should believe by now! : =P

- i cant believe that my baby is 7 months now!!

- that i've been breastfeeding him more than i wanted to. awal2 dulu nk breastfeed till 6 months je but now im loving it.. i feel attached to him and i know he feels the same way too!

- its our 2nd year anniversary end of this month. 2 years back im still single with no string attached. but now my life is complete with a man called husband and my lil pumpkin, adam zarif.

- that i've been working with the company for 4 years already. next year genap 5 thn! another 5 years to go.. yahoo! then boleh quit bukak company sendri! (eceh! dreaming.. =P)

the only thing that i dont want to believe in is..

I TURNED 27 this year!!!! aaaaaaaaaa.... noooooo!!!

Our dream house

2011-05-09T16:50:00.002+08:00

finally.. we got our keys already last week! now is the time to brainstorm nk reno mcm mana rumah idaman kalbu ni. (duduk lambat lg yo!)

My perfect life

2011-05-03T23:47:00.001+08:00

Ps: Bodek nk mintak apa xtau la ni?

Supermommy will need this!

2011-04-27T22:53:00.008+08:00

Being a supermommy that means you have to do everything from a to z. when i means everything, is everything la. pg2 kena siapkan baju, his ebm, tukar pampers, etc. it seems easy if u thought bout it but bila dh kira u bgn since 6am and sleep at 10.30pm at night, penat ok! so its not cool at all to judge moms like me.

the only time that i have is when i'm driving. that is the when i can put my thoughts clear. what to do for the day, work, life, zarif, housechores. its the time to update myself what did i miss yesterday so that i can make it up today.

life.. work.. life .. work.. same rotation. pegi kerja, balik kerja, rumah, life, zarif, etc.. until i dont even have anymore time for myself. i became more tired and stress. stress sbb tak dpt do ur best masa keja sbb i need to go back sharp at 5 so zarif wont be staying dekat rumah babysitter that long. kesian dia. stress sbb sometimes tak dpt spend masa btul2 dgn dia. since he sleeps so early at night. kul 9 lebih dh mengamuk2 ajak tido. (which is bagus la kan for him) and sometimes im stress sbb tgk rumah bsepah gila but i dont have time for it.

simple solutions for me.

SUPPLEMENTS DIET! i admit that i do take shaklee breastfeeding set earlier to boost up my milk supply for him. as well as for my energy. tp it works for the milk booster not for my energy. plus im not a discipline type pnya org. kena mkn 2 kali sure mkn sekali je kut. aish! i hate big tablets.

then my dad introduce me to USANA. Its the number 1 supplement diet in the States.

so what about USANA that are so great?

first of all, it works for me. when i came home, i feel fresh than before. boleh la nk masak2 lg mlm tu and also buat housechores sikit2. this is why im taking the supplement! its great!

secondly, even my usana is not for milk booster but somehow it does help me. if morning i can expressed my milk for around 7-9oz every morning. and this is consistence ok! ptg i can expressed around 6oz. syok gila!

9oz skali pump! im no kidding, i tell you!

thirdly, USANA have been proven its advantage around me. i can feel the different for myself and even my parents. If u dont know, my dad have this cronic cardiac problem and high blood. he supposed to have his bypass last year and now he's improving. alhamdulillah. he's getting a lot better after taking the usana. at least mlm2, he dont have to wake up anymore sbb penat or cant breath well.

i only take once a day for the essentials and optimizers. so total 3 tablets a day! tayah susah2 nk telan byk2. (i'll share each of the benefits in later post.)

my mom is 54 this year. she thought she will menopause since she miss her cycle for few months but after taking the supplement, it came back to normal. alhamdulillah jgk.

and my colleagues was on medical leave for quite some time. He had his slipped disk (spinal) surgery and he managed to get up after 2 weeks of taking the supplement instead of normally org recover and get up after a month.

well.. its for you to decide whats best for you and its never to late to try this. Just drop me an email/msg for assistance. (I'm not an agent just to share what i think is best.)

This is not an advertising post. It just a thought/suggestion that could help us improve our life.

eh.. terselit pulak gamba adam zarif! hahah..

2011-04-21T19:19:00.001+08:00

Expressi tgk maharaja lawak. Mcm pham je.

Cartoon network

2011-04-17T22:30:00.001+08:00

Honestly speaking, im not really into cartoon. Klau korg tanye spongebob or sinchan mungkin tau la kut. Zaman dulu2 kite tgk jem je. Yg pakai subang pastu leh transform jd lain bila pegang subang dia tu. Syok! Never miss it.

Tp lately, zarif mcm dh suka plak tgk cartoon. I think its bcoz of the colours pun kan. Then tanya a mate kt office how she teach her kids talks english, she said her kids watch lots of cartoons!

Ok since kt rumah i only subscribe variety( e! Star world) and discovery channel, kena la tambah cartoon network pulak. Hubs said baik subsribe dr dia tgk cartoon yg ntah apa2. Btul jgk tu. Dr tgk gundam ke the simpson ke lg bahaya.

Maybe patut try 2 bln and see how it goes..

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Where to go?

2011-04-16T12:01:00.001+08:00

Sye dh ready! Tp mommy n daddy x siap2 lgpun.

Mommy wants to go out tp dia pun tatau nk pi mane. Yg pasti, today daddy MUST buy mommy durian!

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Anniversary Getaway Plan

2011-04-12T21:48:00.002+08:00

Eceh.. tajuk gempak mcm nk pegi holiday maldives je. hehe.. well ambitious kan.

tahun ni genap 2 thn i've become a wife. (a good wife i can say).

tho i didnt cook dat much, kemas rumah dat good, talks or listen that nice but im improving... anyway, back to the story.. im thinking to go for a short trip tp xtau nk pi mana lg. Hubby said u plan, i pay. Eceh! Salah statement tu!

To maldives we go!!

(mmg tak la!)

No time

2011-04-12T16:10:00.002+08:00

I wanted to update my blog everyday. I have so many things to tell but it just dat I don’t have the time. *sigh

My boy have occupied my day and night. I have no time for anything else. I’m not complaining. Just explaining. Penat sometimes.. always ambitious nk buat mcm2. I wanted to go to spa. pegi cuci rambut pun jadi la. TP how about my boy kan. so NO. It’s a NO for now.

He’s been a very good boy cuma sometimes bila he didn’t get the attention he needs, he’ll scream, he’ll cry (fake cry!).. oh my.. crying is the last thing i want from him.

And yes.. he can now sit on the feeding chair! (with the cushion support of course!) Smlm while cooking I put him in the feeding chair. Bg dia spoon and bowl. He start ketuk2 sampai boring.. and then.. huwaaa! Screeeam! Hahaha.. sgt la attention seeker budak ni.

The best things is when he woke up everyday and open his eyes, I’ll greet him “Assalamuailaikum sayang.” He smiles.. and my heart melted. I LOVE HIM!!!

*please ignore background yg bersepah tu.

SPANX : In-Power Line Super Higher Power FOR SALE!!

2011-04-03T12:31:00.004+08:00

i have one unit of SPANX: IN-Power Line Super Higher Power for sale. Going to let this go for RM150 negotiable. But this one is size E. Please refer to chart below. Do drop me an email if you're interested.

Tame your tummy and create an hourglass silhouette with Super Higher Power, our new comfortable yet powerful high-waisted hosiery shaper from our In-Power Line. Now, you've got the power!

Amped-up, high-waisted tummy-taming panel
Super sleek, cling-free finish
Mega compression zones target tummy, thighs and rear
Unique new design gives rear a lift
Cotton double gusset for ease when nature calls
Panty lines be gone! Wear as underwear
Legband-free design prevents bulges on thighs
Streamline your silhouette in waist-cinching skirts and dresses

Chart size:

Vicks

2011-03-31T08:53:00.001+08:00

I finally found and bought this.

It states here that this one is specially developed for babies from 3 months. :-)

Another Monday

2011-03-28T22:38:00.004+08:00

monday is the worst day of the week (isk tak baik btul.. istighfar skrang jgk! astagfirullah...)

tp hari ni..

letrik kt rumah kena potong!!! i was soo stupid tak byr bil padan muka. eh tp last month dh byr 200 tp maybe sbb ada tertunggak lg kut. huwaaa!! kesian zarif berbogel kt rumah. mak pakaikan diapers je sbb dia dh bpeluh2 mcm org minyak. (ok boleh imagine sbb tido mlm pun bpeluh2 gila)

trus rush pegi byr tnb jalan tun razak. dh la kiosk tu takde pwd. (ok actually ada pwd tp confused gila byk sgt conteng2. i rekemen tnb tu tulis clear2 sikit. )

lepas 2 jam dia sambung balik. alhamdulillah..

sambung kerja sampai pukul 7 baru balik. tu pun sbb si debab dh mengamuk. baju pun tak pakai (haah mlm ni mmg agak panas sikit. yes. rumah ni xde ekon. umah sewa stended la. cepat la pindah nk pasang ekon 40 bijik nanti)

kerja byk sgt. tak siap2 sampai rasa pening dok fikir. adoi la.

esok pagi la fikir. nak sambung tgk zarif tidoq! syok tgk debab ni tidoq! dh pandai tido mengiring mcm budak umor 5 thn. hehehe..

p.s : husband transit Dubai pi honeymun dgn rakan2 so sabtu baru sampai. shud make a plan for our weekend! must make a plan jgk!

Zarif first solid food!

2011-03-24T16:27:00.010+08:00

Semalam is another history we’re making.

Its zarif first solid fooood!! Finally I got the gut to feed him with solid food after consultation with dr Anthony. (yes..thank u doc for comforting my heart)

Nervous sgt nk bg kt dia and make me fikir 400 kali either nk bg ke tak sbb he is not 6 months yet. tp when I thought about it. And guess what?? HE IS READY!!!

He swallow his food like a champ! Siap kalau lambat nangis2 lg. tangan tak payah ckp la. kalau boleh nk tolong suap sama. Ahaha..

At first mcm confused when I letak the spoon (oh ya..u guys should see the video nanti I update) it was soo funny. Like he’s saying, ‘what on earth is my mom’s feeding mee!! Yuckiess!” hahaha.. but after a while dah.. “oh ya.. this thing sedap rupanya.”

Next thing is vege! i’m sure he gonna love everything I cook for him. Yes! weekend ni boleh beli tefal slow cooker + steam and tefal blender.

I love my son even more now and I sleep with a big smile on my face. He has grown and im always here to be part of every achievement.

his first taste. sampai pejam2 mata xnak mula2 tu. (oh ya please ignore my annoying voice =P)

after a while dh nk suap sendri dah

lepas tu menangis bila mommy suap lambat!

Bila babysitter takde

2011-03-22T08:58:00.001+08:00

Mcm ni la jdnya bila babysitter ada hal. Nk marah mesti la xboleh sbb dia dh bgtau awl. Just dat xde sedara yg boleh tgkkkan zarif. So tpaksa la amek cuti.

Tp best jgk cuti panjang2 dok rumah ni. Jaga anak je keja. Kemas rumah? Hehe.. Bak kate p. Ramlee dlm nujum pak belalang. 'sikit-sikit' je.

Hr ni mak and ayah dtg. Nk pi pickup kt airport tp pg2 lg dh dpt msg dr firefly flight delay. Adoi. Lg lambat la masuk keje ari ni.

Selingan gamba zarif dirumah. Satu muka boring, satu ceria! Hehe..

i hate when he's not around

2011-03-20T21:59:00.005+08:00

bila dia ada kt rumah bukan nk lyn sgt pun. bila dia dh balik kerteh, mula la rindu bagai.

tp sekarang bila dia thousands miles away lg rindu sampai tak boleh tido. (haa.. tu la kau. masa ada depan mata xnak sembang byk2)

and now since he is in San Francisco he must be very happy.. bcoz..

he's a day younger there! congrats! =P
i miss you! cepat la balik!

When to start solid food?

2011-03-19T17:22:00.003+08:00

ok post ni mungkin akan mengundang isu yg tak perlu di isukan. (ye ke? prasan lah kau!)

last week a friend of mine dah start bg solid food to her 4 1/2 months baby. reason being is that she couldnt keep up dgn the milk supply consumption by her baby. she asked me earlier i said from what i've read, rasanya mcm tak boleh bg lg kalau baby tak reach umur 6 months but im not a paed kan then i asked her to call her doc. tp if i can recall a friend dekat office ada ckp if u want to know ur baby is ready to have solid food or not, watch out the supply u gave him. kalau sehari u bg 16oz, then tak cukup.. esok tu u bg pulak 20oz.. tak cukup jgk.. then u bg 25oz. pun tak cukup! ok dats it! he needed to start solid food dah. i think dats what happen to my friend ni la.

poor her sbb ada pulak org dok ckp awal lg la nk bg solid food, kesian baby sbb tak sempat minum susu ibu puas2 la (eh dh bg solid food pun kene minum susu jgk ler), and mcm2 la.. biau ler dia. anak dia kut. kan?

i told dat to my mom. mula la dia. zarif pun kena start dh ni.. kesian zarif lapa.. bla bla bla.. biasa la org tua kan. i buat derkkk jee.. malas nk lyn. for me i dont think he is ready. plus his milk consumption pun its not that critical. tho sometimes dia tak tido lena mlm2 i think its because siang dia tido byk sgt. (cm skrang ni. dh sejam lebih tak bgn2 lg. ni dh nap kali ke4). and osso his neck muscle tak kuat lg. i read in babycenter dia ckp kena neck stable and boleh sit by himself dgn agak stabil baru boleh bg.

then yesterday kan we all went to parenthood tu. ada la booth cerelec. i jumped in la nk mintak sample. tgk org amek berbungkus2. nk jgk kan. dah isi borg la bagai. bila mamat tu nk bg je, then nutritionist cerelec tu dtg. she grab mine and ckp "i tak boleh bg u sbb baby u kecik lg." i said alaaa.. nanti dia 6 bln i bg la. now i simpan dulu. bg la nyonya.. dia tanak bg jgk!! eiii geram..

then she explain to me. its restricted by the malaysia punya law( xtau la btul ke tak ni.kalau dia tipu, aku tipu korg la), dia ckp x boleh jual for baby less than 6 months. she said if u really want to bg jgk, please consult your doctor first. then as a token dia bg i bip je. ye la nyonya. terima laa..

tak saba nk bg zarif solid food! cepat la 6 bulan!!

suruh hubby beli ni kt states!

dpt tau pasal benda alah ni pun since baca blog a blogger. (thanks zura)
then buat survey2 found out this thing is the best compare to avent. tp i donno la price kt states mcm mana. kalau dpt 300++ mcm tu worth it la kut. but i told hubs kalau tak beli pun xpe, nanti pakai lesung batu je. (ok tipu)

my Saturday

2011-03-19T15:32:00.004+08:00

husband left to US already. so tinggal la zarif and me at home alone. i have to stay home sampai isnin sbb babysitter got some visitors from swak to entertain.(she's from swak anyway).

so smlm we all went for a quick shopping before he leaves. he definitely needs my assistance. well.. mesti la i yg decide everything kan. hahaa.. drama sgt!

so then sempat pegi parenthood fair @midvalley. sempat amek food cubes nanti nk letak food zarif and survey couple of things jgk. nk beli nursing bra tmpt yg murah tu tp unfortunately dieorg tak bukak pulak booth. dem! ari tu nyesal tak beli byk.then singgah fisher-price punya booth. tgk ada great bargain for rocker. apa lg rembat la terus! rm285 instead kt luar is rm350. murah kan!

so since the daddy is not around. mommy la jadi mekanik and assembler. fuh! bpeluh beb nk pasang ni pun. nampak sgt la jiwa aku ni sgt tak teknikal. haha.. tp akhirnya berjaya jgk. trus letak si comel.

apa benda yg tergantung2 ni? pelik sungguh lah!

(tgh meragam sbb flu. adoi i hate when he's having flu. meghap!)

4 months old

2011-03-16T09:22:00.001+08:00

Adam zarif is turning 5 months in 2 days time. Mcm xpercaya kan!

Jgn maraa ye adam zarif syg tp mommy suka gila amek gamba awk x pakai baju. Seksiii!

Tutorial : How to blog via email or mobile

2011-03-10T16:25:00.006+08:00

As requested a good friend of mine, Tisha. Here's the tutorial how to blog via email or from your mobile phone. I've tested attached photo using iphone4 and it works however tak try lg attach photo via email.

step 1:

log in into your blogger account. once you're in the dashboard, klik setting.

step 2:
dah masuk setting, then you must click for email & mobile pulak.

step 3 :
scroll down to email posting address. Put anything you want for the name. tp jgn la reveal kt org. karang tak pasal2 org tu tolong blogkan utk u all. =P

tadaaa!!

done for blogger.

Final step:

Go to compose mail/ sms and start typing!!! send it to the email posting address as you registered above.

siap sudah! selamat mencuba!

US trip!

2011-03-08T10:04:00.006+08:00

ok.. it definately not me. my hubs is going to US this month so rutin harian sye dh berubah dr jadi planner ke fulltime google planner. hahaha.. he said google la tgk apa yg awk nak. homaigod! to mmg statement yg salah!

so i've been thinking to ask him to buy:

GAP
Benefit cosmetics

jeep hurricane fisher price for zarif! nanti mommy dok blakang, zarif drive ok. (ahaha.. over sgt)

coach
(nk LV tp LV kt Paris. cis!)

apa lg ye?

baby guess for zarif.
baby Gap
iPad 2? (best gila kut kalau dpt satu!)

dan tgh google lg. nanti sye update. heheee~

kalau duit tu boleh cop, dh cop dh bg husband. oh ye. mula2 igt nk ikut tp sbb tgk tix paling murah ekonomi kelas pun RM5k so cancel je la! dh la flight 24 jam baru sampai. dgn zarif lg. baik 5k tu buat shopping!

My breastfeeding Journey

2011-03-06T22:36:00.004+08:00

My breastfeeding journey have been a roller coaster ride. Its not easy I tell you.

Hari2 di hospital...

Susu tanak keluar. Yg ada colostrums je. Which is the gold kindda like liquid tu. actually they said that’s the best for the baby tp still I wanna the white milk laa.. zarif pulak xreti nk latch lg. habes berdarah2 my nipple. Sakit but thn for the sake of my son kan. then dtg lactation show me the right way to breastfeed him. First few days was like crazy. I wanna breastfeed him exclusive. That mean no other than my susu akan masuk dlm perut dia. But I failed.

Sedih gila.

I couldn’t produce milk. I did but its not enough. they said baby’s tummy is like a cherry but why he is still hungry even if I feed him for 3 hours already?? He was in NICU so I spend most of my days breastfeed him kt situ. The nurses will call me everytime he cried. Mom insisted me to gave him formula milk. Kesian sbb baby lapa she said. Awal2 I said no! then cannot tahan la. he keep on merengek2 all day long. I finally said yes and the worst part is I asked the nurses to took him to the nursery. Im a bad mom, yes I know that.

But yg peliknya when we visited him at the nursery he seems very happy there. Tido nyenyak sgt. and I that’s why said to some of my friends. It’s okay to send your baby to nursery when u’re at the hospital. hey! Giving birth is not easy you now. And it drained up all your energy so its okay to take some rest.

The milk comes after few days. Tu pun balik kedah still org2 sekeliling ckp tak bole mengurut lg la. whatever lah! Then I insisted my mom to call jgk tok long yg mengurut tu during my 10^th days of confinement. She came and mengurut sedap gila ok!! then she told me that actually I can mengurut as early as I want sbb I bukan czer. See!! Lepas tu baru la my milk dtg mencurah2. Alhamdulillah.

The bad thing is I didn’t do the stock. Stok tadop. Bila balik kl nk masuk kerja baru pulun. My aim is just to pump today for his consumption tomorrow. Honestly, I only have like 7 packs of frozen milk je kut dlm fridge. Im not proud of what im doing but somehow deep inside I feel happy. I know I tried my best even tho sometimes I do feel like giving up.

And thanks to Zarif sbb tanak formula milk at all! that’s the only motivation for me to pump everyday. Nanti anak sye kelaparan kalau sye tak pump. In a good way, Alhamdulillah.

I love to see zarif happy bila dia tgh menyusu or lepas menyusu.. I do not have plan nk breastfeed him sampai 6 bulan ke, 2 thn ke. I just don’t want to pressure myself bout that. Yg penting I tried my best for him. Kalau lepas ni I failed pun, at least I tried kan. and after all, no matter what u feed your baby, breastmilk or formula milk that is because you love them right. so I don’t like to judge people yg tak breastfeed anak dia. They have their own reasons and nobody should judge them and I believe they tried their best too because I’ve been in their shoes too!!

Oh ya. And thanks to husband for buying me medela freestyle. He knows me very well. btw, husband.. dh balik modal dh kut ni. you should get me something else as a reward now =P

Saya rasa dia hensem

2011-03-06T17:38:00.001+08:00

Sye mungkin obsess tp sye still rasa dia handsome. Sgt handsome!

Can't sleep

2011-03-02T16:50:00.001+08:00

How can u sleep if he woke u up with a face like this?

It's 4.30am in the morning!

Blogging from Email

2011-03-02T10:31:00.001+08:00

Im testing to blog from my email. How cool is dat?

P.s: your boss pun tak prasan sbrnya tgh blogging bukan tulis important email! Hahaha..

Finally..

2011-03-01T15:10:00.002+08:00

stress

2011-02-22T20:51:00.002+08:00

i am soo stress.

i have no one to talk too.

sometimes i just wish dat i could keep everything inside.

but i cant.

sometimes im just not that tough.

nobody will ever understand what im dealing with.

No more pacham, adam zarif laa

2011-02-20T21:01:00.005+08:00

i keep on calling my baby pacham until today a friend kindda give me a wake up call. obviously pacham got no meaning. saja suka2 panggil sbb geram tgk badan dia bketak2. tp tiap2 hari panggil kan dah jadi doa kan..isk tak baik la mommy ni.

so starting from now, i'll call him Adam zarif which memberi maksud:
adam = nabi kita yg pertama.
Zarif = periang.

anak mommy will always be periang! mommy doa semoga awk menjadi anak yg soleh, yg baik, yg mendengar kata, insyaAllah..

no more pacham after this! Adam Zarif laaaa...

oh ye.. hari ni adam zarif dah mkn jari aunty lina dan lengan aunty ujie yg gebu tu. haha..

Review : Combi Well Comfort Stroller

2011-02-18T11:18:00.004+08:00

Awal2 dulu I was dying to have quinny buzz 3. After considering the price, the quality and most importantly the weight of the stroller, we decided a no go for the buzz 3. Its classy and elegant design is not the only thing that we gonna miss but the good side is we saved few bucks too. Then another option was either combi well carry or Graco Citilite (the one amani is using).

So we hopped from one website to one website. One shop to one shop. Just to test which one that will suits our preferences.

Finally on my 40^th day of my confinement, I get the chance to go to midvalley for the parents and baby expo.(not sure that’s the correct name or not) long story short, I was earlier already make up my mind to buy combi well carry however since there was a promo at the combi booth, we can get something else.. even better and cheaper!

So we bought this!!

For the price of RM880 (Retail Price : RM1299)

I’m loving it to bits!

Ultra lightweight & compact.

One of the world’s lightest and most compact full featured strollers. Weighs a tiny 4.2 kgs, yet boasts a huge sun canopy, multiple seat recline positions, reversible handle and much more. Great for travelling.
Suitable from Newborn to 17 kgs.

I used it everyday now. Since I am staying alone with no assistance from the hubs except weekend, I need to go to the carpark with zarif in the stroller and 3 bags! (1 for zarif’s thingy, 1 tote bag for my breastpump, and 1 is my handbag!) and this stroller is so cool that you can use one hand to fold it! hebat kan..

The only downside so far with lightweight is that, sometimes its not that stable. Tayar dia kecil and ringan sgt. and please don’t ever try to stroll it using the escalator. We did, and its scary!

This is the greatest investment of all (and the breastpump too!)

words can kill you

2011-02-17T21:23:00.001+08:00

boss saya ckp sye kasar.

ok bye.

lepas ni sye akan jadi lembut mcm sopia jane.

thanks.

My next pregnancy?

2011-02-17T01:04:00.004+08:00

ok title sgt over kan.

tp today's discussion with supadupa mommies is when should u expect for the second one. For me, i personally not afraid to give birth again. I wanted 4 children. being the only girl in the family spoils me. i dont cook, i dont to laundry, i dont really much do anything when i was kid or teenager. ntah la kenapa. but i think sbb my mom tak bg kut. actually tak harap. everytime i touched something mesti rosak.

so i lahirkan zarif at the age of 26 (well 25 actually by birthdate =P). so this year dah 27, next year must get pregnant again kalau nk ikut plan 4 org anak tu. adoi nervous!

hubs said dia tak kisah dpt anak gap tak jauh. but he said he is more concern bout me. Letih nk melayan me when pregnant! hahah.. (rasanya hari2 pun letih nk lyn kut.)

next nak anak kembar boleh?

*anak baru 4 bulan dah nk fikir pasal second one. hahaa! sila kemas rumah dulu..

i cant believe i bought this!

2011-02-16T12:04:00.004+08:00

ok duduk btul2 atas kerusi...

nk annouce..

td pi watson dan beli sesuatu...

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simply siti!!

ok bukan satu set tu ye. satu product je. foundation 5 tu. dah try dah kt office td.

feedback : 2 saat lepas disapukan kemuka.. trus rasa glowing mcm siti!!! hahahaha....

When i turn 27

2011-02-15T12:30:00.003+08:00

i was 17 ten years ago. this year im 27 already. gosh! cepatnya masa berlalu. im getting older... ramai tegur that i didnt looked good anymore now. i mean im not the hottest or pretties women in town tp i noticed that my glow is fading. i have dark eyebag, more freckles, my skin like so kering..

sometimes rasa down sgt with my condition right now.. i just dont have time for myself anymore.. well actually its my bad.. i should have make the time for myself too. but sometimes its hard u know. juggling between my work, rumah, baby, everything.. even tak kemas rumah hari2 pun i still have things to do.

when zarif's sleeping, that is the time for me to cook, iron baju, kemas dapur, kemas brg2 dia for esok.. and by the time i wanted to take a deep breath, my son is already wake up. fuh! it is tiring i tell u. even my mom said i keep on wearing the same baju. and she told me to take a good care of myself coz i looked so tired.

see.. thats what im telling u! see my eyebag! (oh zarif is an angel kan?)

sometimes i looked so serabut. i donno why but i think im neglecting myself and my own body. i still have stretch mark on my body and i seriously hate it.

sometimes i wore baju tak didnt fit me well... sometimes i didnt even put a make up when i go out. i wore the same baju over and over again. and my tudung pun kadang2 bersepah.. its sad to see your friends are much better than u. they looked great and when looked at myself.. dush! terus rasa down..

i need a make over! seriously.. i need to cut my hair (last time was a year back!), i need to get facial, i need to buy new clothes and pants.. seriously! i need to change and take a better care of myself. having a child doesnt mean that i have neglect my body.

anybody boleh babysit zarif for a day? =P

A Quick Escape

2011-02-12T11:54:00.005+08:00

well actually.. i wont call this a holiday because its only me and zarif who was enjoying the stay. hubs gotta to attend courses during the weekend so we stayed over at Traders Hotel. (ok stended hotel dekat kl je la kan. not a really nice balinest hotel).

dh penah duduk sini few times when hubs ada courses or matters in kl. i said ok la hotel ni. but now dah xde free breakfast. (sama mcm mandarin hotel dh). here's few first photos of zarif.

btw, zarif x buat qiamullail pun semalam! amazing kan?

oh ya.. we requested baby cot from the hotel but what they gave us is playpen yg bed rendah tu. so tak letak zarif kt situ. and yes! we both tido sampai tgh hari!

isk2.. sampai tnganga mulut. hehe..

Adam Zarif @ 3months old

2011-02-09T10:50:00.004+08:00

expressi muka bila mommy xmo angkat. skarang asyik nk berdiri ja.

ni expressi bila dpt berdiri atau angkat tinggi2! syok la tu ye. mommy mana larat nk angkat slalu. pacham dh 6 kilo lebih! (ntah2 dh 7 kg)

adam zarif at aloq setaq! adapting to kampung life.

his first flight. KL-AOR.

i miss him badly everyday. i wish i could be 24/7 with him. it will one day. love u son!

2011 Wishes

2011-01-26T21:29:00.009+08:00

hey.. i know its late to have new resolution for 2011 but who cares kan. hehe..

need to change my appearance seriously! after that makcik said look old, i came back home and thought deep about it. hubs said that i should change all the clothes in the closet. yup. i agreed. i've been wearing the same cloth for years. like the maroon baju kurung which i like very much. that one is from 2007 when i was still @Accenture. Crazy!

gamba lama. masa ni ujie tak pegi sudan lg.i looked innocent and sweet kan? =P

I want iphone i want it but i have more priority to settle on. like buying zarif's new softbooks, zarif's shirts, zarif's...i should just wait for iphone 5 kan. oh yeah. and hubs birthday is next week. wonder what should i get him this year?

settling into the new house. hey alam impian! bile nk serah kunci ni. i cant wait to live in our dream house and travel 2 hours to go to work. hahaha.. padan muke sapa suruh beli rumah jauh.

work harder i know i've been working hard now but not as hard as i was single dulu. i want to get better in what im doing too! tanak nampak stupid anymore la.

earn more money must start up my business as soon as possible. everything is in placed already. i hope i can managed it well.

be a good wifey i must admit that im not really a great wife. jarang2 masak utk dia. jarang2 iron baju. jarang2 kupaskan kulit buah oren. semuanya jarang2. mungkin lepas ni boleh jadi selalu.

be a good mommy zarif is my ultimate love. (sorry hubs but i know u totally understand). i wanna be a good mommy to him. spend more time with him and read him more books. ohh rindu sudahh~

be a good daughter to mom and dad i am a good daughter without a doubt. just wanna be better. =) and to be a good daughter in law too. coz that will make my hubs more happy. =)

investment i wanna invest more. im thinking to join the asb loan but still considering bout it. i should have save more. tp tempted sgt tgk barang2 baby. tgk je mesti beli! geramm!!

most importantly, be a better muslimah words tell it all. i just wanna be better muslim. pray harder. tanak tinggalkan solat. nk sentiasa igt Allah. (if only my life end tomorrow, apa la sgt ibadah yg boleh buat bekal.. isk.. takut kan?)

the list will go on seriously.. but as of now, this are the things that i wanted the most. insyaAllah.

Medication

2011-01-25T17:50:00.005+08:00

Adam Zarif is prescribed by the worst paed i ever meet with zinnat suspension 125mg and prednisolone 5mg. because i was so traumatic with the doctor so i did some researched with the med he gave me.

here's the fact from the web.

zinnat suspension 125mg

Warning!

This medicine is not recommended for children under three months of age.
(zarif baru 3 bulan 1 minggu! tak sesuaiiii!)

Side effects

Medicines and their possible side effects can affect individual people in different ways. The following are some of the side effects that are known to be associated with this medicine. Because a side effect is stated here, it does not mean that all people using this medicine will experience that or any side effect.

Headache
Diarrhoea
Blood disorders
Yellowing of the skin and eyes (jaundice)
Inflammation of the kidney (nephritis)
Nausea and vomiting
An extreme allergic reaction (anaphylaxis)
Allergic skin reactions

The side effects listed above may not include all of the side effects reported by the drug's manufacturer.For more information about any other possible risks associated with this medicine, please read the information provided with the medicine or consult your doctor or pharmacist.

Prednisolone 5mg

Prednisolone is a glucocorticooid which is a derivative of a type of hormone produced naturally in your adrenal glands. I don't want to bore you with the pharmaco-kinetic activities but it possesses anti-inflammatory action, both chronic and acute. It does this a number of ways, including reducing activity of various chemical messengers and preventing white blood cells reaching their targets. As a result, it is also used as an immune supressant.

Read more: What is prednisolone 5mg used for? and what are the side effects? | Answerbag http://www.answerbag.com/q_view/174292#ixzz1C2WP84Sr

HE is just a baby and im not giving him any of this!!

cranky baby

2011-01-24T14:37:00.004+08:00

Adam zarif is down with fever.. well not a good start for a 3months baby but what to do kan. i also donno kt mana dia berjangkit demam ni. went to see paed @ Prince court. dr ni tak best. so was thinking nk tukar paed lain for zarif.

sat night, hubby went back to kerteh with his parents. yup! his parents came all the way from Tganu to visit zarif. Then around 10pm zarif dh start cranky2.. menangis nonstop. everytime i tried to put him down he will cried like the world is his! f y i.. as usual.. im all alone. Gelabah gila!

called hubby.. was thinking not to call him at first tp what a husband for kan? aaa.... stress sgt! then called mom asked her what to do. she asked me to call someone to teman la mlm tu. i called one person to another.. well biasa la. masa susah ni then u know who are really your friend or not. im so lucky that supadupa is not one of those type! (well.. i love u girls)

then finally.. i called my uncle who lives @keramat. what to do kan. terpaksa la menyusahkan org mlm2 ni which i seriously hate to do!!! tu pun after being pushed by husband and mom. then uncle came and fetched us around 11.30pm. all the way in the car, zarif is still crying out loud! adoi.. seriously rasa nk catch flight pukul 7am balik kedah trus!

settling down in the house and @2am baru la si zarif ni tido..

ptg esok tu.. my husband drive all the way from kerteh.. skipped his work bcoz he's so worried bout us. (yup.. i have a wonderful husband and really thanks Allah for that. =) )

so today we both stayed at home and monitor his condition. he's doing well except still batuk2 sikit. the flu come and goes and i hope he'll be back as the cheerful fun baby like he always is.

mommy loves you!

Nothing come easy in life

2011-01-20T20:22:00.005+08:00

well.. its been a month since i took the job of being the supermommy. its not easy i tell you! its like roller coaster. at first i dah almost give up. (oh selfishnya sy!) then after a month i dont think its hard anymore. plus my baby have been an angel so far making things lot easier for me.

no 1 our routine start from 5.30am. me woke up early to prepare his bag to go to bbsitter's house, pack up the milk i wanted to prepare for the whole day for him. si bam bam ni minum kuat. i have to leave about 5 bottle's of each filled with 4oz! that means im supplying him with 20oz per day and i have to keep pumping to make sure his supply is enough.

no 2 adam zarif have been great so far while sitting in the carseat. luckily he's not that type yg akan meragam or menangis bila letak dlm car seat. i think he's kindda enjoy the ride. ada skali one day pegi prince court sbb kes sakit mata dia tu then stuck dlm jem. menangis pulak dia. when the car move senyap. haiyo.. igt kereta mommy boleh terbang ke syg? =P

no 3 so far i only can pump 2 kali sehari kt office due to my work commitment. seriously 2 kali tu pun struggle sgt nk cari masa. been very2 occupied but i tried to pump lg kt rumah bila sampai. ohh.. a bit nervous about the stock ni actually.

no 4 loan rumah dah approved. now awaiting for the lawyer to settle everything on their part. cant wait to start renovating the house. yes! i'll be warga shah alam pretty soonn! *tp jauhnya nk pi office.. auwww!

no 5 husband have been proposed to another position. though the job will require him to be offshore for 2 weeks a month but at least he'll have another 2 weeks to be with us. rather than spending only 1 day of quality time with us a week. insyaAllah.. tp nervous jgk since kes platform terbakar hari tu.

no 6 adam zarif's tido awl. its good for me utk buat2 kerja lain lepas balik tp i want to play with him. plus bila dia tido awl, mommy dia pun tumpang sekaki la.. lepas isyak dah Zzzzzz~

no 7 i just realized that im turning 27 this year! gila dh tuaaaaa!!

no 8 kesayangan saya!

*mak ckp adam zarif mcm budak dh besar bila pakai bj ni. padahal kepala tak keras lgpun. hehe..

Rindu

2011-01-13T20:57:00.003+08:00

From here..
To here..

cepatnya masa berlalu.. he's turning 3 months in a week time and i love him to bits. really2 love him. hari2 kene gomol ngn mommy. hehe.. just wish that i could memorize everything bout him now. rindu sgt..

well.. he's sleeping right now. sblah je.. hehe..

lipase in my breastmilk!

2011-01-13T20:34:00.003+08:00

ok..ok.. bwak bertenang.. lipase ni bukan lipas ye. or in english cockroaches. this kindda lipase is actually:

Lipase is an enzyme that is normally present in human milk and has several known beneficial functions:

Lipases help keep milk fat well-mixed (emulsified) with the "whey" portion of the milk, and also keep the fat globules small so that they are easily digestible (Lawrence & Lawrence, p. 156).
Lipases also help to break down fats in the milk, so that fat soluble nutrients (vitamins A & D, for example) and free fatty acids (which help to protect baby from illness) are easily available to baby (Lawrence & Lawrence, p. 156).
The primary lipase in human milk, bile salt-stimulated lipase (BSSL), "has been found to be the major factor inactivating protozoans" (Lawrence & Lawrence, p. 203).

source

Lately i noticed that my breastmilk to zarif cepat sgt berbau. i thought basi. yg peliknya it not only happened to frozen expressed breastmilk but also to the fresh one. the other day we went to jusco, baru bg zarif minum satu oz then rasa tak sedap. bau tgk dh bau semcm so tak jadi bg. byk kali mcm tu.

if i can calculate i think i already throw out almost 30 oz because of this! bodoh sgt tak tanya org kan.. then when i told a colleague of mine kt office, she told me about this lipase thingy.. dem! i just wish that i knew this earlier. i think im one of the women out there yg have excessive lipase in our breastmilk.

basically there is a way to help to stop the process of this lipase enzyme. solutions ( to help moms out there) after you pumped your milk then you must boiled it. but not until dia betul2 mendidih la. just at boiling point before it reached 100c then you quickly turn the heat of and cool it. you must immediately store it in the fridge later. or for more details refer to kellymom.com here.

lihatlah stokku yg tak seberapa ni. dh pandai sgt pegi buang tu napeee hana oii!! perlu berusaha lebih keras!

Pacham sakit mata

2011-01-11T20:39:00.005+08:00

should have just change this blog to mommyhood la. cerita pasal adam zarif je sampai org naik bosan. hihi.. dont care.

today wake up at 5.30 as usual nk pump susu. skali tgk zarif merengek2.. then baru prasan dia tak boleh bukak mata!! kesian sgt. tahi mata penuh kt mata sampai melekat. adoi la.. anak mommy ni jangkitan kuman ke apa.. trus call hubby.. nervous trus new parents ni.

bgtau mak.. mak kate letak breastmilk kt mata dia.. eh eh.. boleh ke ni?

then a friend comment kt facebook ckp buat benda yg sama..

so does zarif's babysitter..

* ok la..worth a try kan..

then pi prince court medical centre jumpa paed zarif..

she told me to do the same thing!

amazing kan.. tak sangka breastmilk sgt mujarab. subnallah!

Not so super anymore

2011-01-06T13:07:00.003+08:00

i thought staying alone is not that hard. well.. i tell you.. its darn difficult!! first of all.. i dont say that my baby is a burden to me tau. the fact that i have one cute adorable and very behave son is undeniable anymore. zarif ni mmg takkan nangis.. unleast dia lapa or ngntuk or dia rasa no one is around him.

smlm petang i went back as usual. raining heavily outside. i thought nk biar je sampai hujan reda baru pi amek dia tp my mom said kesian la dia dok rumah org lama2. so i decided hujan renyai2 sikit tu boleh la amek dia.. alhamdulillah slamat sampai umah akak tu and bwak zarif ke kereta. umah akak tu flat so mmg tkde roof. so i have to carry him, together with the payung. pham la baby umor 2 bulan kepala still lembut so kena be extra careful. mintak tolong anak babysitter tu bwakkan bag ke kereta.

ok selesai satu bab..

then dh sampai rumah nk park kereta. satu lg problem since my parking tak roofted jgk! mcm mana nk buat. so i parked my car and hantar zarif naik atas dulu. and guess what?

i have to leave my 2 months baby alone in the house and pi ubah kereta!!! i cried like crazy smlm bcoz i pity him. i hope he wont notice that his mom keluar kejap. BUT...

by the time i got back dia nk menangis gila2!! i hugged and kissed him. trying to calm him down. he's ok for a while lepas tu merengek2. never before i saw him menangis mcm tu. God i feel so guilty. ok again.. nangis lg. this is tough.. then when i look at him dh start senyum balik, i feel a bit better..

smlm zarif tido awl sbb penat. i guess sbb menangis tu la kut. even tinggal 10 minit je but 10 minit is like 10 hours for him. i still feel guilty.. sedih sgt. so then last night i cried in tears again..

pg ni hujan lg.. he woke up early. tak sempat main2 sgt ngn dia smlm sbb dia meragam je before tido tu. then pg td sempatla tgk dia gelak2.. nk pegi ke kereta satu lg masalah.. well hujan tu kan rezeki dr Allah.. i dont blame the rain pulak tau. so i decided letak dia with the stroller kt sblah tu jap. nk pi amek kereta. in between other car harap2 org tak perasan. takut sgt kalau org larikan dia ke apa. but i put him not that far and boleh nampak dr kereta. dlm 5 meter je. then pi amek kereta. put him in the car seat then drove to babysitter's house. alhamdulillah.. dia tak nangis but though tak nangis it still make me feel bad. im no longer a supermommy. i failed to protect my son and it does make me sad.

rasa nk pi jauh2 dr sini bwak zarif..

Supermommy!

2011-01-03T09:34:00.003+08:00

After 3 months of having company with me and zarif, now its time to face the truth. that we'll be staying just the two of us for 5 days a week. hubby will only be back on thursday night as usual. i almost cried bila dekat2 husband nk balik smlm. my feeling?

yea.. scared. terrified. and worried.

scared that something might go wrong and i have no one with me.

terrified thinking the fact that zarif is now depending on me alone.

and worried zarif might not have my best attention since i will be quite occupied to balance work, life, housechores and most importantly him!

then few minutes after hubby left. i saw this on my notebook screen.

my heart melted. *wipe tears*

i know i'll be fine. insyaAllah. hana can do this!

oh yeah.. my baby is still sleeping.

Hello 2011!

2011-01-01T01:44:00.004+08:00

Lamanya tak update!! i miss blogging very much. selalu bukak tp tak penah sempat nk update.

life so far have been hectic. luckily i have en suami who helped me a lot. (yea.. thanks jemurkan baju syg. tolong bersihkan kipas dan seangkatan dengannya.)

so last week dah start kerja for 2 days. ok maybe i should call "dh start pegi office" since tak start buat kerja apa2 lg pun. malas sgt. plus semua org takde sbb cuti ujung tahun kan.

today is new year's eve. tu pun tak celebrate mana2. of course la kan. im now ibu beranak satu. wahh.. glemer gitu status i. hihi.. so life in 2010 have been quite surprising. getting pregnant, being pregnant, confinement, postmortem depression.. everything. tak cukup satu jilid nk cerita semua. mesti mau 12 jilid baru habes cerita 2010 ni. but im happy that 2011 is here now. InsyaAllah, dah mulakan tahun baru ni dgn bacaan yasin. Semoga Allah berkati hidupku ini dan bahagiakanku especially dgn kehadiran lil hero kesayangan.

ni gambar hero sye yg terbaru pg semalam. isk.. rindu sgt. ada depan mata pun lg rindu. hari2 nk peluk cium dia je. thanks to petronas sbb bagi cuti extra hari senin. ni baru la balance work and life kan. hehee.. puji skek..

tak saba nk menempuhi tahun 2011 ni. harap2 more good news to come. insyaAllah.. (tp alamak.. usiaku meningkat setapak lg. tu yg paling tabest.)

anyway, happy new year people!

Decision have been made

2010-12-05T13:02:00.004+08:00

Finally.. one big decision have been made and truly a happy one!

lil hero will be staying with me! yeay!! mommy loves you dear.

jumpa paed last week, Dr chua @KMC. suka sgt doctor tu. very detail. spend almost 20 minutes chatting with her on every single thing. vaccination, breastmilk, baby behaviour.. everything. kiranya dia sgt arif menjwb soalan2 pelik sye. hihi.. i also asked her why zarif asyik tmuak je. then she asked me whether zarif selalu mengeliat tak lepas minum. i said yes.. baru dia explain. rupanya bila zarif minum then susu tu tak sempat turun perut lg. eventhough dia dh burp keluarkan angin tp bila dia mengeliat, all the milk to will be pushed back ke atas. brilliant doctor! i never thought of that. i gave u 5 bintang for your consultation.

plus zarif also dpt his first injection. to reduce number of injection taken, mommy decide to combine the first month and second month injection. guess we'll be seeing paed in kl in the third month. btw, i still wonder paed kt PCMC tu sehebat dr chua ni tak. mcm tak je... nk cari paed lain utk zarif later.

anyway.. im damn happy sbb zarif will be staying with me. although lepas ni i will be very2 busy aka supermommy but i dont mind. =)

zarif now behaving so well. i started a new routine already for him. minum susu through bottlefeeding during daylight, mlm baru kasik booboobs. awal2 dia tanak but now he's use to it already. and during the night, pukul 8 or 9 i'll make sure i'll bring him to bed already. nk bg dia tau which siang and malam for sleeping. tido pun dh nyenyak. alhamdulillah.. next step is to make sure he started noticing sounds and colors pulak. mommy tak beli lg buku2 or soft toy yg sesuai but im sure me and hubby will look for it together.

Cherish the love

2010-12-02T17:26:00.004+08:00

i had to go to kl for S&P loan agreement sign off and hubby picked me up at lcct. sejam ok tunggu tp trus sejuk bila masuk kereta ada something for me..

sejuk hati...

hehee.. thank you so much, love.

(syg jgk dia kt wife dia.)

Now and Then

2010-11-26T17:48:00.003+08:00

Dulu bila sye susah hati, sye salu blogged. Rasa mcm blogging ni satu tmpt yg boleh tenangkan hati yg gundah gulana.

ye.. skarang sye susah hati. sgt susah hati. nobody at home. lg la sye lyn perasaan kan. si kecik pulak tgh beradu dgn amannya.

td sye nanges. kuat sgt. si kecik tgk. dia pun nanges skali. cepat2 sye bg dia susu dan trus tido. kesian. mesti dia pham apa yg mommy dia tgh rasa skrang.

zarif slalu sgt muak susu. kronik la jgk. sampai kuar ikut idung. sye susah hati bila jadi mcm tu. kdg2 lepas menyusu bg dia burp. tp kdg2 dia tak burp so bila baringkan dia lepas sejam mesti dia muak balik. kesian baby.. mesti pedih idung dia. baby mana pandai buang hingus sendri lg. first time jadi sye nangis.. mak pun nangis. masa tu sye xtau nk buat apa sbb tgk zarif dh biru. masa tu dlm hati, "will is loose my baby?" sumpah sye rase takut gila. then sye trus hisap hidung dia. nk bg susu2 or apa2 liquid yg halang dia bnafas tu. geli ke? tak geli kalau kita mmg sygkan anak kita. alhamdulillah lepas tu dia recover. then ada jd 2 3 kali lepas tu tp sye dh boleh manage. sye akan tetap burpkan dia mcm mana skali pun. xpun sye akan riba dia before baringkan dia balik.

being a new mommy is not that easy. mcm2 org akan ckp tp yg penting kita tau kita syg dia dan mahu yg terbaik utk dia. awal2 dulu sye slalu bgn tgh mlm dan tgk dia. "eh betul ke aku dh ada anak?" now im fully accepted the fact and loving every single moment with him. walaupun ari2 tido tak cukup tp chenta utk zarif melebihi segalanya. (zarif besok besar baca ye.. jgn lawan ckp mommy lg)

ohh lupe.. td sye nanges sbb sye susah hati sama ada nk tinggalkan zarif kt kpg utk sebulan or bwak balik tinggal dgn sye di kl trus. mak n ayah suggest soh tinggal dgn dieorg kejap. bg zarif besar sket before anta rumah pengasuh. plus dia kecik lg. kepala pun tak keras lg. sgt fragile! so fikir2.. sye jadi susah hati lalu menangis mcm org kena lelong umah. hihi..

tp bila sye tgk si comel pengarang jantung ni, trus sye happy semula! i know whats best for him is whats best for me.

dunia ni sye yg punya..

utk kelegaan perut kembung sye telah cuba minyak telon, minyak yuyi, air gripewater.. ahh bgtau aje ape yg ada dipasaran. tp yg terbukti berkesan utk anak sye adalah

minyak TYT! boleh didapati di kedai ubat cina atau kedai buku popular. skali letak confirm kentut.. hihi..

Silent

2010-11-21T09:33:00.001+08:00

Daripada Abu Hurairah r.a. bahawa Rasulullah s.a.w. bersabda, “Sesiapa yang beriman kepada Allah dan hari kemudian, maka hendaklah ia berkata perkara yang baik atau diam. Dan sesiapa yang beriman kepada Allah dan Hari Kemudian, maka hendaklah ia memuliakan jirannya. Sesiapa yang beriman kepada Allah dan hari kemudian maka hendaklah ia memuliakan tetamunya.”

Love is a fairytale

2010-11-17T16:50:00.006+08:00

Happy Aidiladha, people!

Today zarif is already one month old. Mcm tak percaya cepatnya masa berlalu. It had been almost 4 years plus since i knew close my husband, a year plus since we got married, and a month of having our own baby. So many things that we've been through together and i hope both of us will never forget to always cherish the love we had. maybe not just us, maybe YOU too!

First date and first outing together. I traveled thousands kilometres just to be by his side. Well not to mention spending all his money. =P
First bouquet of flower that he gave. He used to be so sweet masa bcinta dlu. Where have u been now, hubby? =P
First soft toy he gave me. Actually his fav that he got from a store in Melb.
A year and a half after that, we got married. Had a blessful life together. Still remember all those moment during the wedding day. Somehow i still feel lucky that i have him not only as my husband but my life partner, my bestfriend and my soulmate.

First honeymoon together. The time that we knew each other better. Seriously! After few fights, masam muka and not talking to each other, my love for him have grown stronger.

First pregnancy and first baby.
Hey that's my Zarif im carrying in my tummy!! Im so happy.
Look how cute he is in the 4D scan. Ish! sayang sungguh anak mommy ni.
And finally.. here come the proven of our love that we shared together. Adam Zarif b Azlan was born a month back. He's now taking over his daddy's place in my heart. Well.. i still love my husband it just that i love my Zarif more that. =)

Birth Story of Adam Zarif

2010-10-31T08:54:00.004+08:00

Sunday, 17 Oct

So i wake up early today. I thought today is the day. The doc come for the early visit at 8.00am. so then doc tanya. do you want to induce or normal delivery? well.. normal delivery means i have to wait for the nature to take its place. so i said no. tanak la doc, i had enough with waiting. i cant wait to see my lil one already. hehe..

igtkan dpt induce hari tu tp dr ckp "i would advice u to induce on monday sbb sunday ramai org cuti so yg tinggal pun 2 3 kerat je yg oncall."

thinking deep. (xkan nk biar 2 3 org je yg sambut baby aku kan. mesti mau satu spital tu cheering for me. plus bukannya sakit lgpun.)

so then i said yes. (dr knew the best. lgpun xnak spoil weekend dia.) she gave me home leave letter. that mean i can go wherever i want and come back before tomorrow's morning. Apa lg.. bungkus brg trus dragged husband ke kinokuniya. I wanted to buy the book, "what to expect for the first year." at least ada gk something nk baca after delivery nanti.

we go back home and then head to Cheras for ayam kampung. wohoo.. 2cm dilated pun boleh pi melantak and jalan mcm org xnak bsalin. then pukul 10pm we checked in back at our so call hotel - ward 6H, room 2. This room has the nicest view. So sapa2 nk bsalin kt prince court u can request for this room. sbb bilik lain tak nampak KLCC.

Monday, 18 Oct 2010

Finally! Finally! Today is the day!! i wake up early. took an early bath. gosok gigi, breakfast mkn nasi lemak 2 suap. tak lalu mkn sbb terlalu excited. Then one midwife came tanya u nak epidural tak? hehee.. mestila ckp tanak kan. lets go without epidural! cewahh.. (x abes cite lg ni)

then at 8.00am, Dr Seri came with the magic pils. She put in the pil and let me rest in bed. Masa ni tak sakit lg. i can still smiling and laughing. My husband then pegi rumah my uncle to pickup mom. Tido sane since smlm we all xde kt rumah. takut pulak nk tinggalkan dia sorg. so i said.. "go hubby go. im fine. dont worry about me."

soon when they got in the room around 10 something, the pain started to come. wohooo!! this is contraction. why dont u just kill me!! sakitnya Subhanallah.. hanya Allah je la yg tau. dlm hati beristigfar byk2. husband keep on motivating me and tolong urut belakang. rasa lega sikit.. then the contraction come more frequent. oh Allah! please forgive me..

husband asked whether i wanted to take the epidural. at that time.. dah tk boleh nk fikir apa lg. only pain and pain.. kalau org tanya mcm mana contraction or sakit nk bsalin tu.. masyaAllah.. tuhan je la yg tau.

at 11 something, dah kena tolak pi labor room. well.. bukan utk bsalin lg. utk dptkan suntikan magic. so it people called. nk amek epidural pun sakit gilaaa! abes baju husband kena tarik. lepas tu mmg world la. the world is mine. i feel sleepy, mengantuk yg amat sgt and most importantly painless! yeay!!

around 1.30pm i started to feel the contraction again. Damn! what happened to my happy-due-ral? why didnt it work like people said? aaa.. rasa contraction balik. this time worst!! baik tayah amek epidural mcm ni. hampes! then trus call the midwife suruh tambah dose! yes! im now a drug addict. tambah 1 level je. then rasa ok sikit.

igtkan dh abes.. sakit lg.. i called her again suruh tambah lg tp midwife tu tanak. she said there's nothing that she could do anymore. takut tambah lg nanti i would become painless nanti susah nk push. so tahan je la. masa tu mmg istigfar je la. nothing would help me except Allah. Dh meleleh2 air mata.. En suami pun same. agaknya dia pun tak sanggup nk tgk wife dia yg tak thn sakit sgt ni.

at 2.30 pm i called the widwife again. this time for another reason. nk push!! the urge to push is already there. seriously cannot tahan anymore! the so kind midwife gave me the gas to relief the pain. yeaa.. at least im flying. she said im 9cm dilated and she told me not to push. takut nanti terkoyak pulak. uhh.. ngeri. so thn je la. everything contraction came, sedut gas tu byk2. seriously.. it does help!

at 2.50pm i called her again. (kesian midwife ni dok kena lyn aku je. nasib baik hr tu tak byk delivery). i told her this time i cannot tahan anymore. nk push jgk mcm2 mana pun!! skali lg dia checked. Im already 10cm dilated but still i need to wait for the doc!

where are u doc?

Dr Seri came around 3.00pm. ok thanks God! I pushed as hard as i can. Allah je la yg tau. If people count 10 during the pushing, aku rasa aku count 20 kut. And 10 minutes later.. alhamdulillah.. lahirlah seorg insan kedunia ni.. There it goes.. my precious gift that i've been waiting for 10 months.

Adam Zarif b Azlan
3.10pm, 18 Oct 2010
3.21 kg- Normal Delivery

look at these tiny feets. geram sgt.

daddy tgh azankan Adam Zarif. Unfortunately, i wasnt focused on that so much sbb tgh tahan sakit kena jahit. wuhuu..

After delivery, baby Zarif was taken to the NICU (intensive care unit) sbb dia ada lung infection. when i asked the doc, she also cant figure it why Zarif boleh dpt tu tp alhamdulillah. after 5 days at the hospital, we finally discharged. He's now a healthy, happy baby. =)

18 Oct 2010

2010-10-18T07:01:00.002+08:00

After waited for 2 days for me to be fully dilated.. this is the day. my long battle will be today. I've been waiting for 10 months to see him. =)

Semoga Allah ampunkan dosaku dan Semoga Allah permudahkan segalanya dgn hendakNya. Amin~

Im in Labor

2010-10-16T12:53:00.003+08:00

Afraid that i might forget some of the things, i decided to wrote something on this. Knowing also the fact that once i got back from the hospital, there'll be another person joining our family. i guess i wont have much time to think the details as it happened.

Yesterday i woke up with a menstrual like tummy cramp just like a 15 year old girls having their first period. So then i told my husband about it and he thought i wasnt serious about you (you are my dear. admit it! =P) so then i told him that im craving for cendol. He is being so nice and brought me and mom there at his cousin's stall. After that being the drama queen of the day, i want to try the ayam penyet at the Wong Solo. well.. i still think that Ayam penyet AP is better compared to either Wong Solo or Waroeng Ayam Penyet.

Came back home and dropped by at Tesco to buy some groceries. Mak decided to masak mee goreng since its quite late already. So after had the meal i told my husband that the pain didnt go away and its getting stronger. So then i took the bath, settled everything and went to sleep early around 12 i think. (sebelum tu mungkin ada mkn daging burger 2 biji kut.hehe)

My husband thought that we should come to the hospital last nite but since i still think that the pain is mild plus im not sure is that labor pain or what so we decided to stay home.

So bermula la the ride of my labor journey.. Hari ni is the 39th checkup with Dr Seri. The first patient pulak tu. Blood pressure is normal (thanks God!) and everything is great. She asked me how am i doing and i told him that i've been having the menstrual cramp pain since yesterday. When she asked whether i do have any show like blood or waterbreak, i said no. sbb mmg xde pun. heee..

then she said its better for us to check so then i lied down at the patient bed tu than she start checking on me. The moment she touched my belly, she smiled and look at me saying that, "this is labor contraction. you're in labor my dear"
hahaa... lawak sgt. senyum je la. while masa tu my husband pun still senyum jgk. (saba dulu tak abes cite lg). but this time we are not sure brape lama lg nk tunggu.

so she asked us to do CTG just to make sure how long should we wait for the real labor to come. then suddenly blackout pulak!!! (jgn la blackout masa aku tgh nk bsalin nanti)

waited a few minutes that she's back for ICU and called me again. She said she wanted to do internal examination on me. walaaaaa! the moment that u've been waiting for! hahaha.. kena seluk la.. ape lg! i was so nervous sbb ramai yg ckp sakit but to tell you the truth.. i felt nothing. Dr seri is soo good! lega2...

Then she said the lucky words that i've been dying to hear for the past 2 weeks. "honey.. u're 2 cm dilated! this is what we called latent phase."

yeay!!! and yet im still laughing and smiling.. haha.. while the other half..

*pulse..*

muka pucat senyap trus tanpa kata2.. hahaha..=P

so now im back at home because i refused to wait and stay at the hospital. bek dok rumah boleh mkn nasi sedap2 pastu tido nyenyak2.. dh sakit sgt nnti baru la pegi..

till then..

please wish the best for us. insyaAllah..

6 Days and counting

2010-10-13T09:14:00.002+08:00

Semalam dpt tau my friend, Cici dh diwarded ke hospital. Sempat lg dia berym masa tgh tunggu tu. haha.. then mlm semalam kak nana call. letting me know that her sister also is currently being admitted to SJMC. ok fine. stress? tak langsung. i donno why but i dont feel anything about that. Kun fa ya kun.. belum sampai masanya lg ye.

So yesterday i drove myself to car wash, pegi beli badak berendam (again! hehe) and also pegi Midvalley. Tak pernah ku sangka nk cari parking kt midv susah gila. baru igt nk bwak mak minum air mata kucing, xde rezeki btul. then trus balik singgah tesco. Mom bought kopi for me. She said nanti utk my consumption during pantang. huwaa.. kopi pun kopi la.. janji air.

Husband is not here yet. I hope he'll be back by tonight. Lots of thing to be settle before his long leave. Sometimes i pity him what he've been through. back and forth kerteh-kl. not easy lorr! But i need him here too. Tak lama ye syg. Once I delivered our precious u can go back to your work. =P

Anyway, I got no plan today. Darn! I should have one.

*thinking

Spira : Alam Impian

2010-10-10T10:53:00.007+08:00

I dont know what to post anymore. Never ever thought that waiting could be this hard. Lg stress dr tunggu husband masuk meminang dulu. (stress ke tunggu dia minang? mcm x je. =P)

Lets talk about my dream house. Ntah bila la Naza TTDI akan keluarkan CF ni. They said its gonna be oct, but until now there are still no news about it. xpe la.. sabar tu kan separuh dr iman. sabaq noo.. So below is the interior for Type C. (24x70- build up area 2258 s ft).

the first one is the powder room. Powder room ni dekat pintu masuk rumah. hmm.. im not sure i really like the idea of having a powder room dekat living room tp hubby said its better so that nanti guess2 dtg tak perlu la nk ke toilet dapur. good point!

the second one is the view to from ruang tamu then trus ke guess room. sblah tu courtyard. so then our kids later boleh mandi hujan dlm rumah sendri. muahaha! tp notice tak rumah ni byk gile cermin. abes la duit nanti nk pasang grill and langsir. good luck husband!

yg bwah skali tu is the living room. spacious! and im loving it! =)

yg ni sama mcm kt atas. Courtyard like mcm ruang udara supaya nanti sye boleh bernafas segar. heee..

the next one is my small kitchen. ahhh! ini mmg tak brape minat sgt. bukan ape sbb xde tingkap besar. x dpt la nk tgk luar sambil cuci pinggan. tak best sgt but what to do. ade duit bkepuk2 boleh la ketuk dinding tu sampai hujung tp sedarlah diri wahai hana. hihi.. mom said "xpe dapur kecik pun.. awk tu bukan rajin sgt memasak." cis! memperkecilkan kebolehanku. mane tau nanti dpt dapur cantik i masak lg sedap dr chef kt hotel 8 bintang tu.

then bwah tu is the guess room toilet.

tangga menuju puncak. =P (tak dpt nk buat glass stairs mcm helda laa)

view from outside. Master bedroom. Kt luar ni family area. Hubby sibuk nk beli sofa bed letak kt sini. Cubaan membantah berkali2 berjaya dipatahkan. takpe.. cuba lg.

ini adalah master bedroom kami! spacious gila! i likkeeeee!

master bedroom punya toilet. siap letak batu2 kelikir lg kt dalam tu. sweet sgt naza ni. i like the idea very much. proposed to hubby nk buat toilet mcm maya hotel. response, " banyaknye duit awk." hihih.. proposal jee..

another two bedroom upstairs. Satu will be baby bear's room. the other one maybe will be reading room or bilik solat. Toilet are separated which i like the idea. xde nk berebut2 toilet nanti.

view inside the second room upstairs.

itu saje utk setakat ni ye. nantikan next lawatan pulak ye which i think next year la kut. sbb after this i'll be going back to kedah sampai new year.

oh baby bear! bile nk kuar ni.. mommy miss u.. ok.. nk baring. sakit pinggang.

Week 38

2010-10-09T12:50:00.004+08:00

i cant wait for Saturday sbb today is my 38th week checkup. Siap bgtau mak ntah2 kena warded trus dgn perasaan yg sgt gembira. We were her first patient for today. Nampak muka doc trus rasa happy. Then have a little chat with doc. She's asking me how am i doing and everything. Too good doc! nothing shows yet until today. (dalam hati..there must be something today kut).

When the time nk periksa perut, i lied down in she start her checkup with a big smile.. "lambat lg ni hana.. baby awk kt atas lg"

huwaaa... tak baik i know but i want to deliver soonest.
*(skrang tak sakit mmg la ckp camni. dh sakit esok mesti tobat.haha)

she said there's still lots of space between the baby in my tummy. Xpe la. anak mommy sronok lg kt dalam tu. let him be in his world dulu. nanti dh ready kuar sihat2, ensem2 ye syg. =)

but im still happy today. Eventhough that my firmed EDD now is 19oct but still, when i saw his face inside me, i feel relieved. He's doing so well inside. Doc said if he didnt come out by 26th Oct, then she would have to induce me (no no no!). I hope that wont happen. I need to pray harder so that he come before that and also for him to turn his position so that i wont be having back labor. Td checkup he is still happy with his old position.

*kuak lentang mengadap depan.

*baby pusing mcm ni ye baby.

Well.. i asked my husband to go back to work. Doc said based on her best estimate i wont be deliver by next checkup. so baik daddy balik office selesaikan semua benda dulu then baru dtg tunggu baby. Kesian mak. she have to wait here for couple more weeks. But i know things happened for a reason kan. Anyway, my younger bro is coming next week. Sibuk je nk dtg. anak mak betul!

So there it goes.. another 10 days to go!

Ye! Sye jahil..

2010-10-07T20:22:00.004+08:00

I was googling about birth labor.. then i found this entry at one blog. http://babyaidafiqs.blogspot.com/2010/01/post-birth.html.

Mommy of two here mentioned about mandi wajib lepas bsalin. Curious pulak aku. Terus tanya mak. Then mak told me that mandi wajib lepas bsalin is mandi wiladah. Google pasal wiladah pulak. This is what i found:

"Wiladah ialah darah yang keluar mengiringi bayi dari kandungan ibunya. Mandi wiladah ialah mandi kerana bersalin dan ia wajib kepada setiap wanita yang bersalin. Dan diwajibkan juga mandi hadas sekali lagi setelah kering darah nifas"

from : ppm.edu.my

MANDI WAJIB WILADAH DAN NIFAS ADAKAH SAMA?

Soalan: Saya seorang perempuan yang baru melahirkan anak. Masalah saya, adakah saya perlu mandi wajib nifas selepas saya habis pantang (berhenti darah nifas) sekali sahaja. Kerana saya ada mendengar bahawa seorang perempuan bersalin, perlu mandi dua kali iaitu mandi wajib wiladah dan mandi wajib nifas. Minta penjelasan? (Anis-PMM)

Jawapan: Sebelum saya menjawab soalan tersebut, elok saya definisikan maksud wiladah dan nifas. Wiladah ialah bersalin dan nifas ialah darah yang mengiringi wanita bersalin. Oleh itu wiladah dan nifas adalah dua darah yang berbeza. Oleh sebab itu perempuan yang bersalin perlu mandi wajib dua kali iaitu mandi wajib wiladah dan mandi wajib nifas. Ulama’ fiqh mengatakan bahawa diwajibkan mandi wiladah kerana mereka menyatakan bahawa wiladah adalah sama dengan air mani. Oleh itu wajib mandi disebabkan keluar air mani. Masa mandi wajib wiladah adalah sebaik sahaja dia mampu bergerak untuk membersihkan diri. Wallahu a’lam.

Wallahu a'lam.

Alhamdulillah dpt tambah satu lg ilmu. =)

Back Labor

2010-10-07T11:40:00.003+08:00

update day 4.

baby is too comfortable in mommy's tummy. sronok agaknya dok dalam tu kut. mommy ni pulak asyik sumbat mcm2 je. makan selagi boleh. lepas ni dpt tgk aje la. hari2 mkn ice cream potong kacang merah. sedap gilaa!

lately asyik rasa ngilu je. im not sure what the pain is. tp last weekend masa checkup with doctor, she said baby is facing forward. that mean he's lending against me. Then i did a little investigation on that. its not good.

people call it as back labor. according to the article in http://www.suite101.com/content/back-labor-a38438, back labor can result in more pain and longer labors. In some cases, it might mean that the baby needs to rotate to face the mother's back.

im not sure so weekend ni checkup i have a new question for the doc. and im hoping that my baby will face backward. insyaAllah.

My new gadget is here!

2010-10-05T17:46:00.003+08:00

Guess what arrived today?

My ultimate medela freestyle breastpump!! yeay! after few months of thinking whether to buy avent or medela, manual or auto, one pump or double pumping.. i finally make up my mind and bought it online at the most reasonable price. RM1350 with one year of warranty. Couldnt asked for more right? =)

Thank you to mr husband sbb sponsor. i promised i'll use it wisely for me and baby bear.

best sgt! its a happy feeling!! =D

btw, baby bear bile nk kuar ni. i cant wait anymore.

mommy dh tak saba dh. =)

Day 1

2010-10-05T00:19:00.002+08:00

I woke up today with the biggest smile on my face. Bcoz today is the day that i dont have to think about work, I dont have to wake up early to drive into the traffic, today is the day...

but baru sehari kt rumah.. i already feel lost. boring. darn boring. went to tesco with mom to buy some groceries. and at night went to my uncle for beraya @keramat. been thinking too much today and make one proposal to the husband.

can i choose planned induction of labour? i hate waiting. i hate looking at the clock and found out it just 5 minutes passed by. urgh!

then i read the books again. why should i do that? i do not have any problem with my pregnancy. i only have few more days before my EDD. kesian baby nanti kalau paksa2 dia keluar. long time ago women fought for their right for natural drug free labour. i should think more. plus i have more time for myself now before the baby come. so chill up!

*husband was not really keen into induction. well.. i think he's right. =) so this weekend i'll nag him around shopping mall again with me and buy me something that i dont even need. =P

btw, now i felt some sort like stomach cramp like having menstrual. i have mild backpain and i think that is what people call contraction. i'm learning through the process. Hopefully Allah mudahkan perjalanan jihadku ini. insyaAllah.

Update Week 37

2010-10-03T09:32:00.002+08:00

Yesterday i finally declared that im starting my maternity leave already..
*pulse"

well.. not yet. mintak courtesy from the doc to give me med leave sampai i deliver. reasons being is because tak larat nk drive pi office hari2. (well obviously alasan gila). most people who know me will say im still capable of working.
*helloo.. mommy needs some rest too ok! =P

then we also went for my 37th week med checkup too. (oh nampak sgt sye malas. balik awl pegi checkup. dok office pun x keje sgt. hihi)

i finally gain 3kgs! tak penah sepanjang pregnant ni i gain so much. Doc was not so happy sbb dia slalu pesan jgn gain byk2 sgt. Im sorry doc, i had too much rendang and ketupat during raya. blame all the open house that i went to!

Baby bear is now 2.7kg! yeay! anak mommy berkembang dgn pesatnya. hehe.. im happy, he's happy. that most likely make my days. doc asked whether i wanted to induce or normal labor. well.. so far we decided to go for normal labor. xnak paksa2 dia keluar lg. plus i still needs more love from my husband. nanti dh tak dpt peluk cium slalu lg.

btw, mom's already here. abg and ayah pun still here but they're going back to aloq staq today. tinggal la sye n mak menunggu si kecil yg tatau bile akan tiba. *xpe.. mommy will wait for u, ok dear!

syg.. cepat datang ye. mommy cant wait to see you already! mhuah2!

Another 3 weeks?

2010-09-26T11:30:00.003+08:00

hari ni tgk ticker di sebelah menunjukkan baby bear is coming in approximately 3 weeks!! homaigod! x saba sgt. most of the people that bump into me said i'll deliver earlier than the date. but seriously i dont really mind. as long as the baby is healthy and safe, its really fine.

Semalam ke midvalley with husband to buy some few stuffs for the baby. luckily ada mamy poko super saver so managed to grab one jumbo pack of S size for rm42.90. murah gila!

before that, had early dinner @ Dominos pizza. First time i feel so uncomfortable. I think its contraction or brixton hicks but im not sure. tp sakit. didnt tell the husband sbb nanti dia ajak balik trus. =P lepas bgn, then walked a few steps the pain gone. fuh! Then sampai rumah dtg balik but it just a mild one. The one i had in dominos is worst. wah.. ini rupanya rasa sakit ye. tp still boleh manage.

I was thinking to do drug free labor meaning no happy-due-ral. but im not sure. I hope i can bare the pain and Allah help me throughout the whole process. insyaAllah. Pray for me. The time will come soon. Real soon. =)

Pictures say a thousand words!

2010-09-19T22:10:00.005+08:00

Few photos taken during raya this year.

kucing tok Saadiah (my beloved grandma) baru lahir few months. 3 ekor ,semuanya betina. anyone interested? lets put the price of rm200 sekor. ehehe.. gebu2 ok! nk amek bwak balik tp mak tak bg.

paksa husband buat kek coklat sama2. tgk mixer dh kena balut ngn plastik sbb2 kesihatan (berhabuk gila mixer 2 thn tak pakai).

result: mixer dh rosak. Kek kurang manis sbb pn hana yg pandai sgt bake ni pi letak satu tin cocoa powder. Mat gebu ckp satu cawan je. heheee..

oh sepupu2 ku. tahniah kerana berjaya pecahkan gelas mak chaq tiap2 tahun.

Pn hana sedang bkerja di kilang bihun sup menyediakan juadah buat tetamu.

Wedding Kak Yati (cousin husband) di Tganu. Look how big and fat i am!!

Post-raya

2010-09-19T00:38:00.004+08:00

Im happy to be back in KL and another 4 weeks i'll have my love in my arms. InsyaAllah. This year its my turn to beraya di kedah dulu so then on wednesday night, we rushed back to kedah after berbuka. Alhamdulillah, jalan tak jem pun. cuma byk kereta and we did stopped couple of times during the trip sbb sye tak thn nk buang air. ehhee.. minum byk sgt plus baby dh turun ke bwah kut menekan2 pundi kencingku.

Initially, i've decided not to go back to Tganu(my husband's hometown) since i was already 34 weeks pregnant at that time and i was not advice to do a long hour drive. But since my parents said its not nice to that, so then i change my mind. Hubby was okay any other way that i chose.

There goes the journey of my raya.

First day raya was crazy. there are so many people comes to our house and we didnt even get the chance to take family photo pun!! Dad make his delicious bihun sup and mom's expertise was in laksam kedah. (sorry xde gamba jgk. too busy entertaining the guess).

Second day raya, we went back to mom's hometown in Pendang. Another hectic day.. Tok is quite old. She's around 90+ i think but still alhamdulillah sihat sejahtera. All her anak saudara come to visit her and i mean ALL!!! gila ramai sgt sampai my mom's had to keluarkan cawan kertas for them. Sorry la. We have only two hands and i barely do anything since mom's wont allow me to touch anything pun. She keep on saying, 'u're not suppose to do anything by now.. this is ur first kid.. bla bla bla.." imagine i have to hear that every one hour of the days.

Third day.. we had enough with Aloq Setaq. (well not really enough. I cried in bath sbb rindu sgt kt rumah.hahaha.. sgt manja!) then we're off to hubby's hometown around 12.30pm. Luckily tak buat perangai sgt nk berenti pi toilet tu since u know kt karak tu bukan ada hentian sgt pun. Paling tak best all the way back dekat Gerik byk sgt kereta terbabas. One i saw the passengers to still dlm kereta lg. Ya Allah.. takut gila. I keep on praying the whole way.. Sampai kt Jeli, boleh pulak jem 1km/hour ok! we should reached home around 8pm something tp end up we reached at 12am!! It took us basically 12 hours from Kedah to Tganu. Sakit pinggang xtau nk ckp mcm mana. But i know i can still bare it for the sake of my love to my husband. (padahal xnak dia beraya sorg2 kt kpg tu.hehe =P)

Fourth day is the open house at my in law. Ramai gila org dtg sampai tpaksa masak nasi beriani and goreng ayam tu 3 kali. rupanya salah budget. I woke up around 7.30am to help my mil and sil dekat dapur. tolong goreng ayam, potong nenas except one thing.. i surrender basuh pinggan! sgt x mampu nk berdiri lama2. pukul 6 ptg dh flat gila and took at nap sampai kul 8. then hubby wake me up since his friends from PMO dtg beraya.

This is the most hectic raya i think. Maybe sbb my condition skrang yg jalan 2 tapak pun dh tercungap2.. insyaAllah raya haji ni dh boleh beraya bertiga. =)

syg mommy ni bile nk keluar ni. dh tak saba sgt nk tunggu dia. i told my husband that i'm not fear of the pain sbb i was too excited. Sye anggap ini jihad ke jalan Allah. Setiap detik sakit tu insyaAllah akan gugurlah dosa2 sye slama ni. (husband pulak yg terlebih nervous.hehe)

34 Weeks

2010-09-07T20:55:00.002+08:00

Today i celebrated my 34 weeks of pregnancy. It should be grande day for me. My baby is fully developed. Even babycentre.com also stated that baby this age will have 99% of survival if they are born prematured. But somehow, im not happy. I just wanna go away from here. Plus the raya is coming and i'm still in kl. i miss kampung very2 much. I cried to bed these few days. Even now while my fingers are punching the words yet still my heart was beaten. Few things that make me so feeling so sad. My job.. my life right now.. people around me.. and everything. Sometimes, it doesnt feels right.

I wish i have a hot tub right now so that i could just lie in the tub and playing with those bubbles and get my mind out of here. It might be the anxiety of having the new person in my life and added with those ridiculous human being that Allah created just to test us and our faith. I believed that everything happened for a reason and somehow i believe that Allah choose me for this difficulties because Allah know that i can take it. Its not that easy, i tell you. Its not easy to please people but sometimes i just thought that.. "why cant people just be civil if it is hard enough to be friendly."

i know what gotten into me but today seriously not a good day. I tried to do some shopping therapy but soon when i got home the feeling come again. Those sarcastic words.. its not easy to forget.

I miss my husband. I knew he tried so hard to cheer me up and im sorry. I promised him that i wont be sad anymore. I should be happy that our love is a month away from us to be in our arms. Im sorry. But i promise u, this thing will go away. Tomorrow i'll wake up as the same person people use to know me. InsyaAllah. Just wish that he's here so that i could cry out load and let him hug me till my eyes closed. But he's coming back tomorrow and it'll be my happy day again.

To my love in the world inside me. Mommy loves you very2 much and i wish you come out later as a happy, healthy and cheerful person.